Kisseslikelies.

2009-10-21T00:29:00.001-07:00

Hi guys I've moved, but I'll still continue to post here hahaha!!!!
So that don't make me a promise breaker for breaking my 1 year url promise. :P
Brilliant idea, k00lx.

Thanks my bimbo for helping me with my blog layout and everything, mua.

It'll be harder to bring me down next time.

2009-10-20T22:21:00.000-07:00

You can't give up, even if all you do is cry.
Swallow your tears,
stand up on your own two feets.
& show them that you aren't giving up.
No matter what.
- icanread@tumblr.

I hate seeing the truths but I know it's unavoidable, I know I'll be handling it when I first stepped into this scheming world with faces all around, I know I'll have to be as scheming as despicable in order to survive, but who doesn't?

2009-10-19T08:03:00.001-07:00

Hiiex my stripper friends.I'm Aimiko/Jesse/Jesselyn helping this idiot do his template but seeing tht his blog looks so dead i can't help but update his blog for him and since i'm at it, i might as advertise my blog too =^^=. I might juz get more readers.

This Jansen idiot is currently kp-ing me in msn.sighs sad.I feel like boxing him so tht he's jaw would pop up like some pple.Like me he doesnt like June we both like the month December.Ok random.

Buaix people.Remember to go my blog and click my nuffnang k.I'll luvv you all.

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XOXO,
Hugs'n'Kisses.

2009-10-18T21:45:00.001-07:00

Idk what to post, bye.

2009-10-15T19:32:00.001-07:00

Short update before going back to sleep for the 3rd time today.

Im having very very very bad sore throat I swear, it's like something is stucked in the middle of nowhere of my throat and punch me on the inside whenever I eats something.
I have to eat medicine to keep myself better incase it got worsen, but I couldn't find medicine anywhere.
I have to sleep before I went to work at 18 30, doubt I'll get good results for sales today, I can't even talk properly now, but Im serious in need of money.
Feeling kind of relieve that I have 5 days of rest day.
I wanna dye my hair real soon, when is this month going to come to an end, this seem frever.

Ok bye. P/s: sorry for neglecting.

Nabei ah - : Stfu when you dont know anything, dont judge someone, dont try to be so judgemental, I've not failed my english you bet. What a loser, not happy dont come lah hor, not as if I beg you or plant some red carpet to welcome you whole heartedly, never. bitch.

Omg this is me.

2009-10-12T23:07:00.000-07:00

OH MY FUCK GOD, THIS IS ME, HAHAHAHHAHA. SUPER CUTE PLS.

I am not a whore.

2009-10-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

Tmrw maths exam, song la! Most probably gonna sleep through out the examination, I bet there's not even a single sum I'll get it right since I've not been passing my maths since primary school, don't put too much faith into my calculation.

Anyway back on yesterday, prepare and etc. Train to Compass to meet up with Yiqing, fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck I swear I was laughing mad at our bets, ok so the bet goes like this :

Yiqing : Like that I'll reach compass first.

Me : I'll!!!!

Yiqing : I will lah shut.

Me : Let's see who'll reach first, loser will be the slut. Yoohoo.

Yiqing : Ok fuck I missed my train, you win already.

Me : Woohooo! I comfirm win lah slut.

Aftermath I got off the train thinking that I'll most probably be able to call her slut for the rest of the day, but...! I saw her after I tapz my card, argh. She cheated me!!!!
She cheated my feeling!!!!! She cheated she cheated she cheated!!!!! Ok end of it.

Bus off to Bugis, reached. Walked around, chanced upon some familiar faces, we just got ourselves walking rounds after rounds like some retard until yiqing finally got her new bag.

Puff at Iluma's garden on top! Was mad smoking, didn't know why.

Aftermath train down to Dg to meet Jane, Zhiyin and Rachel. Saw alot familiar faces at Jcube like Aimiko, Jae, Shiro.

Puffed outside bunk again. Was damn bored, aftermath dexter cam. Went to Parklane area for pool. Ok so the circumstances went like this. Dexter pawn > Jansen&Zhiyin pawn > Jane the fucking noob.

Left for home early as going off to dinner with Mum :)!

Woohoo. ( Edited )

2009-10-10T07:12:00.000-07:00

Last long with your dog Edison, woohoo.

You know best if what you told is excuses or not, I don't bother finding out but it's definitely not convincing enough to let me believe that there's nothing between you and him ^^. Called him bi then tell me is because you're used to calling me bi, when he msg you 'You don't want me already' then you'll reply 'No lah where got.' Bravo sial ^^.

I tried changing everyone can see you say you cannot see? Smlj? I try forgetting you think if i go call another guy bi then sweettalk with him you will forget so easily ah? Stop saying until like everything's people's fault, you never once reflect on yourself.

Just go and last long with your Edison dog and your precious pride.
Bye.

History attack!!

2009-10-07T07:51:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, tomorrow is History, Im madly mugging on history books and files now but I can't seem to get anything inside my head. This is terrible + horrendous, this will be my worse nightmare. -Prays to god sincerely-

I was so confidently telling people that I'll surely pass my History with flying colours :( yet now I can't seem to have a single bit of confidence. This is very sucky you know!!!

Another point I know you guys will feel like fucking killing me when I change url once again. I dont care x2!! I still changed, and I like it. Ok lah, to stop myself from changing url again I made a deal with whoever is looking at this post ok if i change url of this blog again ( within 1 year ).

I'll be cursed and crash by car okkk. I bet everyone will hate me if i change agn :(. Just can't resist the temptation when new words came to my mind.

This is bad, holy.

Wounded.

2009-10-06T04:01:00.000-07:00

Hi im here posting the pictures of me and and co celebrating lantern festival, had great fun. Luv you guys -winks-.

I know it's damn alot, but who cares. I can't remember the details on that day, I just vividly remembers that i went to meet up with Yiqing and William and then meet up with Zhiyin Jane and co.

Followed by us busing down a big round to Pouggol park and start burning the candles, I was mad smoking a hell lots of cigg until my heart kind of start to tremble and felt like vomitting.

Walked down the road with Jane to get drinks. Had more fun when we're back, slacked until 10 plus, Jane and co cab me to Amk, thanks! :) Train home and slept like some dead shit.

Few days ago idk when, went to study with Yiqing and William, was hell bored over at thk's house because something happened there.

Slacked around and went home early, idk why are all the things going the opposite way of me, like my heart always sank whenever something bad happened. I just dont like it.

Lim simin :
I love you more than words could describe, your shoulder were always there for me when im down or broken. Your words nv failed to cheer me up, make me become what i am and what i should be.

Whenever something goes against me, you're always the one defending me, helping me to understand what friendship is all about. Remembering us quarrelling makes me laugh :> knowing that we do care thus we do quarrel.

Lastly just remember, whatever is happening or going to happen, i'll be here, just few calls or sms away. My luv will always be there for chiu, :>!!! & Imy :<.

Mia.

2009-10-03T00:34:00.001-07:00

Hadn't been blogging very often these days, main reason's coz im too lazy, nobody bothers to read after changing my url for so many times anyway. Another reason being was bcos exams coming and sometimes i've to work.

Anyway, I watched Phobia for 2 times alr, brave or brave ( ofcos brave lah ). Plus, I think my blog is lacking of pictures yet I do not have a decent camera to take a picture with ( Fyi my phone's superb for everything except for the camera, pathetically 2.0mp. )

I think my blog is getting far way too boring, how oh my god. Today is lantern festival, have fun burning people's house off people, baibaiz.

Truth.

2009-09-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

Turning devastated wasn't an option, was a choice, but what could be the other choices when there's only one option to devastated.

When life's going to be lead wrong, what could you do to turn it right..? When the worst of the worse happened, what could be the miraculous thing you could do?

Back on self destruption, glue&cigg.

( Insert shit face )

2009-09-28T02:34:00.000-07:00

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Loser ^^.

2009-09-26T19:00:00.000-07:00

To : Sammie

Dog, you who? Lost stray dog? Shut your trap man. Which part of my post said about your father's tattoo. 4iiz4ii w0rhhsx, muiix v3liix sc4r3dxx :((. Kp lah hor you, give fake number, trying to make a fool out of yourself? Don't try to say I nv dial you ok, when I was calling, Zhiyin, Jane, Rachel, Boonkai, William and Zhongjun all with me oi. If let me find out you're eliza or anyone related to eliza, limbei comfirm seh you.

YOU WATCH OUT.
Oh yah, I went to watch Phobia2 with Zhiyin, Jane, William, Rachel, Zhongjun and Boonkai :P! Lcb like the whole cinema only me screaming -.-, laokui eh. Overall not bad the show ^^ me like.
Shall elaborate more when my brain's more awake.

Sometimes happiness can be real.

2009-09-25T22:13:00.001-07:00

I love Thk, you know who you're when you sees this :P.

Ytd's just another fine working day, met up with Eileen, Yiqing, William, Sara, Chengxuan and Zhongjun at hougang intertchange.

Having a hard time selling for Evergreen ice-cream, Treat's still better compared.
Slacked around dont bother selling, why bother when you alr know the result?

Home after supper with Baby, thanks for yesterday :P.

A fake post.

2009-09-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

Don't ever try to bring me down with this, it wouldn't hurt me like how it used to hurt for the first time and it'll be the last time im going through this.
I wouldn't continue remembering how we love, instead im going to move on with another route when I first chance upon you.

~~毕竟是我爱的人,我能怪你什么.~~

Holy fuck! Im winning this battle, loser bitch.

2009-09-23T05:50:00.000-07:00

Today school's still like usual, nothing really special, slept through History, had science practical in the late afternoon, wasn't really prepared for it, came to know there's practical only during recess, geez. Didn't did a really great job about it as expected.

Plk, anzua? You called your boyfr come call me when you can't out talk me? Smlj rofl, eh your boyfr also lanjiaobin lanjiaolang laojiaokuan lah hor, say I bueygan, he sibei ehgan come Yishun tio me lah, why don't dare come only dare diamdiam?

Tell you lah hor, limbei bo sala, diu leh lo mou is diu ni mei mao lah hor, what scold your pehbu, ironic much? Go brush up on your languages, and stop using your act cute voice t talk to me, I felt as if my hair stood up instantly, rofl.

Nice passerbys in your tagboard eh, all you act one right, keehong. So ehgan, call me again lah hor, why talk half way kup alr, make me laugh my ass off. Stop saying you bo sala lah hor, you pengwei means wu sala, _l_.

Disgusted.

2009-09-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

Came across, someone's tagboard and was amused by her tagboard, so many spammers, I shall post some dedication for you ok bitch, be honoured.

You lied and said that someone else's Livejournal was your's? Wow, should I give you around of applauses for being so courageble? LOL. Or should I say you're just some pure shameless slut. Retard to the max.

You got piercing on your face, big? Daisai? Wow -Give innocent face-, pierce alot more ok, I hope your face got alot hole in the future, just like the moon surface, I'll then buy you some bluetack to seal up your holes, how kind of me, shut!

Followed by showing off your father's angkong, wow. What the fuck is that design? I dont know ^^, tattoo is an art I appreciate too, but if it's on anyone who is related to you, then it'll be piece of shit, a leopard won't change it's spots, this phrase refers just nice to you.

You should know who im referring to, not happy come only 8411 2879. Whack me ok, shortie ^^.

Happy dying.

2009-09-22T01:59:00.002-07:00

Ok, first I've to apologise for the lack of the update, bcos Im busy with my new.... Nokia E63!

Looked awesome right, the main reason i get this phone is bcos it looked appealing to meh and it's got the most wonderful function for all the chit-chatty people which is free msn function, omg. I don't care if you like this phone or nt or if you find this appealing, because I like it and that's all I care.

Although this phone might be complicated at times, but still, it takes time t figure out something new right, since it takes time to figure out, it also means, I'll never get bored of this phone, ^^!!!! Holy, this phone's the most awesome babe I've ever seen.

William's going t get the red one of this phone if im nt wrong, yayyyyyyyyy!!! This phone rock your/his/her/mine/everyone's asses ok.

Anyway, went to Vivo days back then with William Yiqing Zhongjun and Yiqing's cousin... Sokpeng? Or something like that, forget already.

Fun days for me ^^, ok baibaiz, im going over to Mum's office and find Claire sis!

A fist with a kiss is better than nothing.

2009-09-18T20:41:00.001-07:00

Thanks William, Yiqing, Zhongjun for the brownie, luv you guys alot ^^.

23652646..
I thought we used to be so fine, what happened..? I know I shouldn't be the one speaking.

I used to believe everything would go just right, yeah I wish.. even the slightest sight of hope's gone until now, until now when im so locked up in you, until everything's getting so disfunctional. Where'd promises landed on? Your heart? It'll break, Mine? It'll rust. But if it's not our's, where'd that promise went to?

Maybe I am and never will be as important as how I used to be after giving up 2 times on you and this seemed-so-wrong thing, I don't wish to be a loser and think about it, atleast not at this point of time when everything's going right and I seemed so bored to find problems for myself to think about things so disruptive like you and me.

But I can't let go - 19th September 2009.

Even the sky cry.

2009-09-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

There tons of photos more but im too lazy t upload.

So today's sch was boring, got called up to sing birthday song infront ^^, thanks everyone for the wishes. Was god damn sleepy in school today, I am sleeping in every almost every class, I hate lesson of Wednesday except for the early release and History lesson.

Skipped extra lesson becausde im too lazy t attend, so i packed my bag and left, saw Joleen, walked the Khatib station while smoking with her, ok I really smoke alot, damn. Talked about alot of things while walking, reached Station, train down t Tpy, met up with Jane, Rachel, Shirley and Jacia. Went up t block and puffed.

Aftermath they left for their Oral and i've to wait for them for half an hour, bored. Finally Jane's back and we met up with Zhiyin, ate Kfc, slacked and puff. Everyone came afterwards, slacked around, went up t Skygarden t eat cake, thanks guys <3. Luv you all ttm.

Slacked there puffing and chatting for hours, and finally left t interchange, Junwei and Boonkai left first. Me, Jane, Zhiyin and Rachel went over t Mac's t eat agn, ok I eat almost all Jane's food. ^.^

Slacked over at Interchange's staircase, played true or dare, fking funny I swear, ^^, I was made t dance pole dance with the handle of the staircase, Jane was made t call up somebody and Moan for 10 secs, and Zhiyin was made t call somebody and tell him that he's lip's very sexy, and Rachel was made t ask a girl for number. LOL.

Fun day. ^^.

Someone drop me dead, it's tiring.

2009-09-14T05:48:00.000-07:00

Baby felt dizzy and vomited during his outfield, he's send t hospital and going back t his bunk now. Im worried sick, I am..
Peace with Mum like finally, kind of relieve.
School today was better than usual because I passed easily without being catch for my attire.
Sleeping is definitely the best solution t kill exhausted.

Birthday? Screwed.

2009-09-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

Let's all face up to this, you aren't happy, neither am I. So why wouldn't you shutup and listen to me speak, maybe, Im saying maybe, this circumstance which both of us despise would come to an end, and maybe this kill-die-revenge game would never be revealed.

Ok today's a great day for me, I swear it is, went over t Baby's house, oh yes, did i mention he's a great guy ^^. Im totally smitten by him, rofl. Slacked at baby's house the whole afternoon, went over t Sembawang in the evening to find Co.

Reached Station, met up with Xueting and Yuhui, went over t Sun plaza t buy cake ( I fking asked them nt to bash me, they still did!!! ) bought cake, walked over t 588. Prepare and etc. I fking thought they would bashed cake on my face, but they didn't ^^ ( You think they are so great..? NEVER! )

They throw balloons which is filled with Flour and water t throw at me, and I fking got scared LOL, oh great, I looked utterly amazing ( not! ) Another round of bashing after taking the candles off the cake, uh-oh-eh-ah, although Im dirty, but Im happy ^^, I swear Im happy.

T you : 7 words for you, Fuck off and die I hate you C:

Im off t sleep I supposed, Im feel exhausted. I think I shouldn't be a loser anymore, atleast nt like you.

Working day.

2009-09-11T19:33:00.000-07:00

Argh, I hate it when my mood's rampages somewhere inside, mofo. I don't want to sit here posting, I wanna talk to you like Im just close to you, talking about my hefty problems and responsibilities.
I hate this feeling, Im sad, Im angry, Im fraustrated, Im on the verge of despair, Im nt drugging yet increasingly smoking.
Im nt dying please take a good look at the hurts you've caused, you could almost killed a planet if you want to. I hate being a coward but I hate seeing you still hurting like another coward, let's all stop playing b'coz it isn't fun at all, naw at all.
Stop deceiving t yourself that you're some hero whom I could or maybe anyone could rely on, I hate lies yet, I couldn't make myself stop believing your lies b'coz your lies making me feel like Im really what you're lying to be.

Working is tired, geez.Quote : http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com/post/184872296/sometimes-when-our-friends-ask-us-if-were-okay>Runawaytrain.Sometimes when our friends ask us if we’re okay, we tend to lie, because we know that telling them the whole story is just going to break our heart once more. So we might as well just lie and say we’re fine.

Who to blame?

2009-09-10T21:01:00.000-07:00

Maybe I should stop blaming people and start reflecting on myself seriously, and sorry everyone for the false hope, my birthday is totally ruined now.

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Im nt happy anymore

Go back t your hole and ff yourself man!

2009-09-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

You're one fking sore loser please, did i take off my shirt or pants t seduce your boyfr? Did I put some spell or something in his drink to make him fall for me? Please la, I didn't, you 2 quarrel, I only think solution for him right, please la -.-'.

What kind of name is boyfr snatcher, then what are you? Boyfr loser? Get a life man please, stop acting as if you're some sort of sore loser.

Can't afford t lose a guy to me? Or are you having some problem with yourself? Come t me lah, slap me lah, find people whack me lah, I'll see.
(Fyi: I nv accept him -_-)

Everyone fking relink me asap: Chupato69.blogspot.com Im nt gng t use this disgusting url anymore, why? Because some shit know about this url and i hate seeing her visiting my blog, sad :'(.

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2009-09-09T21:15:00.000-07:00

Ok updates regarding my birthday:

Not going t pub t celebrate anymore, because of some fking inresponsible person, nbcb.
Decided t go steamboat instead.
I'll meeting you guys on saturday, time? I don't know. Maybe you guys can come asap after whatever you must (nt what you have to do instead) ok. So when you guys are coming just kindly give me a ring. :B.
Anyone of you have any place in mind you want t go?
(Sidenote: I wish this fking birthday fking end asap. )

Ok byebye.

You should fking die.

2009-09-09T09:14:00.001-07:00

I hate it when my life turns upside down, I hate it when so many things come tumbling down to me when I am supposedly to happy over my birthday which is few more days' time away, I hate it when I couldn't control over my emotions and went overboard, I hate it when I quarrel with my Mum, I hate it when you're nt around.

Trust me, im not going to care about a single shit anymore, it'll only get myself into deeper shit.

2009-09-06T08:55:00.001-07:00

I'll be your Lycan in a heartbeat.

Let's start from 4th sept alright, so I think I'm mad because I was wearing a thick coat under the hot sun, the coat is really very thick, can even wear during winter I think even though I've never experienced winter before. So I went over t Doubyghaut t meet up with Simin&Daze finally for like the first time they are earlier than me plzplxpls LOL.

Saw the new built bunk, so empty sighs. I miss the old times where all the bunkers will play around bunk and scream, those days were like so fun.

Aftermath we train down t Hougang b'cos Simin's didi(?) is like going t pierce eyebrow for us. Trained down, bought our stud, chanced upon Yiqing sis and Dapane, didn't get t see Renee sis, oh naw, me so sad. Ok frget it, going to see her tmrw also.

Hahaha, aftermath was actually planning t ask Yiqing sis's friend's friend t pierce for us, but Ahvan said it's cheaper t pierce over at Old woodlands. So we went old woodlands t pierce instead, used gun t pierce wtf -_- damn unprofessional pls.

Went over t Causeway point's toilet to change stud, but after I've taken out the original stud I can't poke back wtfffff, damn pissed. Im like standing there poking for 123456789x millions of years but in the end still cannot poke through, urgh!!!!

I regretted piercing eyebrow, im nt gng to pierce eyebrow tmrw i swear, but Simin is -winks-, Im gng t pierce either tongue or septum but im still hovering on which one t choose from, geez. Somebody give me some suggestion pls, I think my brain's going t burst.

Me and Aimiko got fever all her fault la she pass her fever t me, somemore she hotter than me she 38.6 and me 38.3. How can that ever be man.
Looked here lah caocao, my hotness'll beat you someday man :B!!!!!! You wait only. LOL.

6th of Sept: Went over t Jane's house after rotting at home for the whole morning, reached Potong pasir went mac's with her for her meal LOL. Saw Rosanne there ^^V, been so long since I last saw her.

Ate and went t play over at the playground nearby, I was like talking t a smallkid, I say he grow up can be shuaige, after that went over t Mrt t pick Simin and Daze up.
Rot around Jane's house for few hours and I went t swim t kill my boredom, aftermath I started sneezing and sneezing like some mad guy, I can't help it too.

Bathe and etc, Lynn came, she's sad. Oh watermelon meimei, cheerup ok, me always here for you :3, same t you Jane :-P! Aftermath train down t new bunk t slacked, no one's there practically, I was so sick so I was complaining about how much I wanted t go home, in the end everyone went home :B.

2009-09-04T21:47:00.000-07:00

I've yet t get my photos from Lim vivi, she's not yet online since ytd night, wtf is she dinosaur or what. Ok nevermind, it's nt my main topic anywayz.

So.... my birthday is coming la, LOL. Most probably going to move it 3 days earlier to the 12of09. Because on the actual day of my birthday it's a tuesday or something, grrr damn stupid ok whatever. Anyway those who're coming just give me a ring/msg @ 8411 2879. I'll be very glad t see you la ( with your presents LOL ) ok must come ok ):!!!!!

K byebye.

2009-09-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

Save and sound but never a step closer.

Me like this photo because my face looked... uhm how should i put it, special? Ok maybe nt LOL.

Shall skip today and wheel to yesterday then, since today's bored and tired, i bet you'll fall asleep if i continue elaborating. So ytd was like i work up i brushup i eat i shit i bathe and i do all the things that a person or maybe not a person should've done LOL.

After bathing I train down to Boonlay alone to meet Simin up :D! Reached and we went to Safra to play audition, I swear the computers there are damn shitty la plz, the keyboard is like so much worser than the one I have at home. ^^.

I was god damn hungryz, so we went to eat all kind of shit around Jp, hehehe C:! After eating we started walking around Jp aimlessly, srsly la, very boring, and then we suddenly have the urge to change Audition Igns! How very brilliant LOL. But too bad no inspiration so i went home first.

And I luv L.simin that doggie ( Vivi ) very much cos she's always there for me whenever I need someone or a listening ear, muack ok borbuey me luv you to the very very max. -Went on and sing : I know you want meh, you know i want cha~ LOL! Thats all i think.

2009-08-31T06:12:00.000-07:00

You doubt i doubt, maybe it's that third person who we've became that we should've blame.. or maybe not?
Neither of us are to be blamed this with, because we weren't right to being with.

Today: Almost late for teacher's day but Mom shaked me up, cab over alone reached and Naia kbkp because im the last one entering sch -.-. Naia just don't know when to shutup or when to not..? I almost blew my top at her, but in the i still managed to kept myself calm, I think i've mastered ear cleaning skill.

Aces day, exercised and did workout, wasn't really paying attention to the workouts, or maybe i just couldn't, there's something on my mind repeating. Omg berserk berserk la. Aftermath recess ( what an early recess 8:40 ).

When we're done eating, Donny sent us back to classes for decoration because we're going to have class party ( mainly for teachers so i dont give 2 hoots ), I think i've showed my worse attitude ever today, k fine I admit, im sorry then?

None of us was bored by the programs classmates performed I supposed, there's etc : Singings, dancing, fashion show (?) LOL, and lastly speeches, looking aback at how far we've came, sigh of relieve caught me, I think we're all doing fine.

Aftermath cab to Amk to find Cassandra, Yeelin & Daze, we're practically just rotting ourselves with nothing better to do except for sitting down in Mac and write notes, ok i know we're like never grow up kids but trust me, you would do the same thing if you're in our shoes.

I feast myself on 3 breads, don't call me a pig or whatever naw im nt ok, definitely not. Aftermath train home alone, time for peace out i supposed.

Saturday: Another bored day la, lawl :P. I think i have stm because i can't remember anything on that day, selective dillema maybe? Or maybe not, I dont know dont bother, irony much.

I think we just rot our day off at fareast again, alright. That's the main point of that day and i think I did a great job on taking notes + summary. Byebye.

Happiness never back.

2009-08-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

Happiness is a choice.

Strictly no pictures today ok!!!!! :@ Grrrr, because all the pictures are with Simin and Claire :@, and it's all unglam picture of me ok!!!!! I made a big sacrifice by disgracing myself to make them happy, how noble. Hahaha!!!!!

After sch, met Sky and Claire at semb, slacked and puffed, bus to woodlands to meet up with Simin XD, first time she waited for me you know si shioked (Y)!!!!! muackmuack hehehe.

and then slacked at carpark, followed by Cass and Yeelin came, slacked at carpark and off to walk around Causeway point. Then off the outside causeway point to slack okie. Puff and joke.

Baby then came, then went to Semb with Claire and baby, puff slack again, and i started to have bad headache so went home early to rest, thanks baby for sending me home ok ;). Me luv you.

Happy 14th birthday to Simin.
I♥BESTIE!

14 already ah, grow up lah my fen hong feifei :D!!! I luv you to the max ok, thanks for being there whenever something bottles me up and cheer me up with your cuteness, and always telling me funny things with Alicia, thanks ok.

Hope you have a wonderous birthday this year :D! Muack.

Battlefield.

2009-08-26T01:39:00.000-07:00

Over moon... not.

Hi i luv my bimbo Hojingci very much, muackmuack, thank you for editing my alr dead blog, hahaha!!!!!

You ah musn't cry so much alr, later your eyes blind ):!!!! LOL. Remember hor, Im always here for you no matter rain or storm, woohoo, muackmuack.

Anything im just a call away :B!!!!

Im dead beat.

2009-08-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hello lovelies ^^.
Change of blogskin okeh. :0 Pretty pretty blogskin.
RIGHT ANOT?! O: I edit one okay, mai siao siao :@.

Hacked into bimbo's blog. HAHA.
Cause he went to sleep and refuse to blog about me :@. Angryangry.
If 24 hours later hor, still never blog about me. I hack into your blog again :@:@:@:@.

A small little note for you, bimbo. :)
Don't be pissed off with whatever that's gonna obstruct your way. Life is full of ups and downs. Everyone have their own settling, handling each of their own problems. I know you're angry to the max with some people. Yet on another hand, you might be feeling so disappointed at their actions. Don't get over agitated alright. You still have yr cliques there fr you isn't it. ^^ Don't worry about this matter so much. I hope you are sensible enough to handle this is the right and way. If i can, i'd like to to give you a helping hand as much as possible. So anything feel free to speak to me, i'm 24/7 twenty four seven fr you. Be it the past, the present or the future. Luvya.

Teehee, hope you get what i mean ok. Meant it from the bottom of my heart one hor. LOL.
Though words couldn't rly express how much i want to advice you :@.
Goodnight. LOL. POST ABOUT ME TMR HOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :@
If not next time i don't help you change blogskin, edit pictures, and change cbox colour.

K, byebye jansen's blog readers ^^.

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Withloves, Hojingci. ^^

True colours?

2009-08-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

Who'd be there for you?

Hi been ages since i've last updated, too bad la oi, busy man okok ^^. You prob can't imagine how happy I was these few days, let's start from Saturday, went over to Cityhall met Simin, Cassandra and Daze, slacked around.

Booked room in Kbox, woohoo, stayed inside to slack and sing, play and talk for long hours, Sky came over to find me because he's looking for a job over at cityhall ( there's a job fair there fyi ) walked around no good job in practical, :B.

Aftermath back to Kbox, slacked around till 6 plus, went walking around and home aftermath, damn bored that day plz, everyone go home so early, shit you alll!!!! :@.
Oh did i mention that we quarrel with 2 aunties on our way to Kbox, they are bitches i swore, nt really my problem actually but they assume that we've no parents to teached oh well, that sentence is enough to make me hot, hahaha!!!!

Gan all the way with them till they are speechless, crowds were gathering, but who cares right, it's alright to fight for our rights, this is called Freedom of speech. Hahaha, grow up la aunties ^^!!!

I just back from meeting Claire, Sky, Louis, Junxian, Johnathan, Yuxuan, Yiying, Myron, slacked. I only attend half day of sch today because i was having bad stomachache la plx. Claire came over and impose as my step sister to bring me home, fk my sch's system woohoo.

Aftermath, went to take medicine and mc with Mum at house area, and home to sleep for like 2/3 hours and off to meet them at 211, puff and slacked.
Aftermath, slacked at 9tou.. fk louis and junxian plz, they suck )< ! Keep bua my butt and call me dalring LOL. Aftermath i was too scared to go home and Louis winked at me and ask me go his house sleep LOLOL cb ok.

Aftermath sky sent me home :B, thanks yo!!!!

Dumbfolded.

2009-08-17T04:51:00.000-07:00

Simin on the right! Jansen on the lefttt!

These are the overdue photos I took with Simin on Jane's birthday celebration.

And food obviously, we would nv go out in and empty stomach.

Lastly, our beautihool faces, I do hope our faces kept you entertained. Yes holymum.
Oh yes, about yesterday, had great fun with Claire & Sky, met up with Claire at around 1 plus, bus down to Clark Quay to buy candies, Claire's mad I swear, she bought 4/5 packets of candies at one go, mad or mad? Aftermath, Cck (Lot1) for puffing and movie, catch 'Where got ghost' not very linking but very entertaining, seriously and had great meanings behide. You people should catch it sometime soon alright. Aftermath, met Jonny(?) and puff around Lot1 area, then train back t Cck, walked around, chanced upon a few familiar faces, aftermath, home and started with my 'New moon'. Everyone said 'New moon' is a piece of shit compared to 'Breaking Dawn' but I dont give 2 fucks, I luv Edward cullen to the max 2x!!!!

Where'd went wrong.

2009-08-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

Aren't we supposed to be with each other, why are you indulge in our own world instead, it shouldn't be it.

It seem almost impossible for me to type a single shit now.

P/s: I finally get held of New Moon after searching high and low for it, thank god.

Happy birthday to Jane!

2009-08-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday bitch, remember one thing that I luv you real much and no matter storm or rain, my shoulder's here for you.

So met up with Simin at bugis around 2 plus b'coz she slow like fk plz, i've to stand outside Guardian to read the effing twilight for like 1 hour and 30 mins, -.-. Thanks to L.simin ok, but still luv her much for accompanying me through the boring Saturday :B!

Went shopping for clothes after meeting Simin, bought things i wanted and went to buy cigg, it's so hard to get ppl to buy cigg for us nowadays, bullshits. Bought and walked to Junction to hail cab to go down Tanjong pagar ( is this how i spell it ), and holyshit when i was about to get 2nd puff i realised the whole packet of cigg on my hand is gone -.-, how stupid, stupid or stupid, fine call me brainless.

Bought another pack of cigg, but simin swear she wouldn't let me get hold of any valuebles from then on, so sighs, i've to pass the cigg to her everytime i finished puffing, damn stupid. Met Cass and Daze and went over to Reeve's pub.

Slacked around, watching people singing Ktv, playing pool, people come people go. Drank a few sips of wine, but none of it could get me drunk. Inmune much? On the other hand, Cassandra drank the whole bottle of Xo just because nobody there allows me to drink ( You should see how horrible i was when i am drunk. ) in the end she got herself drunk.

Started bullying her, halfway through she cried, ok i know it's normal for people who're sad+drunk+emotional to cry, but it's abnormal for her to cry so ridiculously, but anyway stay strong my dear, you'll be able to pull through it's been 16 years that you've survived, you'll be able to pull through another round of this game.

Aftermath, sent Cassandra and Yeelin home and train back home with Simin and Daze, went to catch 'Orphan' with Daze, oh my mother fking dog, the director is a maniac, $%^#!$@^, sick show, but worth catching.

Selfish.

2009-08-14T05:35:00.000-07:00

People are selfish. Yes they are don't tell me what crap, friends forever pls full of bullshit.

Tell me friday go watch movie, ok.
One tell me 3 end lesson, ok.
One tell me don't want go out moodswing ok.
Another one tell me go out, ok.
One tell me don't want go, ok.
In the end? 3 of you go watch happily. Foad.

From today onwards im not going to follow what you people want, im not going to listen a single crap, i will just do it my way. [i]My way[/i].

Breathless.

2009-08-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

Im god damn happy b'cos i think! I think!~ Im getting eyebrow piercing which i've been craving for long tomorrow!!!! Woohoo.

I'm finally meeting my bestbestbestbestest darling Cassandra.lau tmrw, mua. I wanna watch Orphan i hope i can watch, i must watch it :@!!!! but im yet to be 16, by a few months -_-. I hope they let me get the ticket because I wanna watch it so much!!!!

Im going shopping with Mummy on sat, woohoo!!! Im so gonna get her to buy me 1234356789 pieces of clothes, just you wait mummy ;)!

Fml.

2009-08-12T02:15:00.000-07:00

Okie fuck my life fuck everything. Fuck you fuck me fuck him fuck her fuck them all . Was only wanting to trim my hair by abitz ok i stressed on the word abitz, in the end the person just chop it all off like grasses, oh w-o-w -.-!

Now my hair has a shape of a square ok, square fmy. Today went sch in cab with Tequila, reached was almost late but still managed to reached hall before assembly begins, was damn bored watching the assembly program so i went off taking a nap.

After for like hours, we went back class for lessons, fml. Our class've got new classmates, ^^. Recess slacked in class like some retardz.

After schl, served detention outside staff room for like 1 hour and 30 mins, was damn bored but couldn't call up to anyone as Miss Lee's just sitting right next t me when we're serving detention, fml. Bus home with Yongjian aftermath. And oh yes, i closed my labret piercing once again, nt going t pierce back anymore, or maybe eyebrow next time, we'll see.

P.s: No more pictures until my hair grows longer.

Mind over you.

2009-08-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

Hi im eating the sweetest apple you know you know!!! Know why ? B'cos it's from my mother okiez!!! Don't be jealous ( I know you wouldn't anyway! ) Semen ( Simin ) that bitch is kping me on msn!!! Everyone go eat her up plz )< Simin is ultimate bitch!!!! She keep say got one guy who dance shuffles is very handsome, hehe. Everyone also can't hold a candle to me laxzx -Holds up my potraits-

Let me talk about yesterday first.
10 August: Met up with Adrian in the afternoon, headed to Northpoint for movie ticket, bought G.i. Joe i hoped i spelt it correctly. A 4.40 show, pretty interesting, wouldn't be a disappoinment if you're planning t catch it. Aftermath, train down to Fareast around 8 with Tequila, had a quick walk there, was hestitating over Biker jacket/Jean jacket, none caught my eye in the end, what a pity.

11 August: Today started badly, I [i]swore[/i]! Got called to stand up for reading period b'cos i skipped sch on friday, and got called to stand up during English period b'cos i was doing English homework during Home Econ's, i realised my sch liked t pick on me over trival matters don't they? Kind of irritating by now, schools' seriously [b]no life.[/b] After sch bus home with Sichen and Janice.

Had dinner at the coffee shop nearby my house with Mum, had curry fish head, she finally brought me over for that after me whining and moaning and groaning so long, thanks Mum! You're the best, luv.

Back on blogger, goodbye onsugar.

2009-08-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

Surprised to see me update here? Don't be ^-^, after much consideration i still find blogger my cup of tea, it's easier for updating + uploading photos. Just a short update and mass photo spam okie, Simin's still holding to some pictures which i think she'd yet to upload and send me or did she alr done it? I don't know, shall check out with her later.

8Aug: Gave sch a miss because i find it totally meaningless to go to sch for just national day celebration. Met up with Cassandra and Yeelin around afternoon after their celebration at sch, followed Cass home to change and slacked around her house, and off to meet up with Yeelin and her cousin, darn cute :D, off to Jane's house at potong pasir slacked around watched a few horror films, nice place :B.

I♥SG!

9Aug: Got my $100 and a packet of cigg from someone! Thanks ok, be happy when you sees this, i've yet to spend a single cent of your $100, i'll use it wisely thanks for the cigg anyway. Aftermath slacked around bugis alone, chanced upon Silver who was working there, aftermath train down to Boonlay to slacked with Simin and Daze, been a long time since i've last seen her, oh my! Miss her much.

10Aug: Rot at home for the whole of morning, Mummy came back went off to Northpoint for dinner and shopping with her, Mum bought her chunks of clothes and i got nothing because nothing i wanted was on stock ( New moon, brown contact lens ) bad day. Mum cab me to Bukit Batok to meetup with Simin and Daze aftermath, thanks much Mum. Slacked around and puff, off back home around 10.

That's all i supposed, bye :D ( Lastly I love blogger more than onsugar )

Finally reaching towards end.

2009-07-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

My blog closed, oh bye.
Thanks for your support all along.
Jansen, xoxo.

It's the end.

2009-07-29T05:58:00.000-07:00

I wouldn't talk to you like how i used to be.
nor will i miss you anymore.
this is how im going to be.
without you.

Defination of me and you?

2009-07-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

This hot babe over here is my new love, she've big boobs, i like it!
P/s: His hotdick is his magic wand~!
P/s/s: I shall go to Slim Fit and upgrade my boobs sometimes, so that Simin wouldn't call me a flatchested anymore.
P/s/s/s: I want this size ( . )( . ) is't possible!

Bad day.

2009-07-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

Today is a seriously sadistic day for me..

Are we going to be like this forever..?

Went for breakfast over Mum's office this morning, damn nice ^^! Luv truck loads, heh. Ate went to Sunplaza with her, bought my went over to get my spectacle, thanks Mum, you're the best again! Saw Claire and Yuxuan over at Sunplaza, went to Kopitiam to slacked with her, walked around Sunplaza and all got ourselves one pair of super cute cookie monster slipper! Slacked at Mac's with them, talked and puff. Saw some familiar faces, aftermath Claire's boyfr reached followed by Simin and Daze, bought my cigg and off to Yishun, i went home to change and bus to Tamp to meet up with Cassandra and Yeelin.

Went up to Longjohnsilver's and slacked, aftermath puff and off to DDR, saw Dorin and co, played DDR with her i swear my stamina is getting poorer than ever, off for another puff outside Tamp mall, and went over to MosBurger for lunch, saw some disgusting people there who only know how to critise about people, shout back to them O:! If you're so great come up to me and slap me la -.-!

Off to Pasir ris as Tamp was too bored, after reaching, went over to Pasir ris park, reminds me of someone.. lol. Walked around the beach and slacked at the sand, camwhore and talked abit. Today is very boring yesyes i know, but still bear with my post man.

Bootlick me.

2009-07-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

Forced myself to update because i realised my readers are dropping and dropping and dropping non-stop like waterfall man! Is my blog not interesting anymore ): that's so heartbreaking LOL. Im still feeling, all thanks to Tang yeelin, will tell you why later, she suck i swear, i swear!. Today went to sch as usual, glad im nt being sent home again, *fire crackers, reached sch, had lessons and lessons, ate for lunch as im too hungry and shag ^^, hey people pls do eat properly for the sake of your health okay, roflmao. Maths lessons was never so fun before, we were playing battle ship and i can't believe i lose to Yongjian man, by one move okay! ):

Bryan was scaring me with the curve ruler like an idiot by kept on whiping it at me -.-, though nv hit me but the sound is enough to keep me scared, LOL. He just kept on chasing and chasing me like an mad man with that fking ruler, i swear if im not afraid of the fking ruler i'll go up and throw Bryan out of the room god. After sch, bus t interchange with Bryan, Yuzhi, Joevi, Chengzhi, and trained down to Hougang then bus to Bowen sec area to find Yeelin, walked over to get my bubbletea, sat down and starting to bet some childish thing with her, mind you it's very entertaining.

Aftermath, Cassandra came after her piano lesson, she's faster than Daze *3 cheers for Cass, wait for Daze to arrived and walked over to Hougang mall, inside was like damn boring la, and oh yes, i think Yeelin's got bladder problem because she force us to go toilet with her from time to time ^^ but she drank only a packet of greentea like hello. Walked around, saw one SengKang sec sch girl who folds her skirt till it's like damn short i think if wind blows her skirt will fly up and we can all see her nanny underwear i afraid, we got into a staring incident with her, aftermath went over to block t slacked, wanted t get cigg but was too poor to do so, give up on the idea.

went back to Hougang mall because Yeelin wanted to pee again, so funny ^^. Went up t 'Just a store' to buy some tibits, nothing much eye catching there, bought a packet of twistie ( tomato flavour, damn nice ^-^! ) ate the whole packet and went over to playground to slacked, i swear it's the best place i've been in my whole lifetime, not (!). We played something which will turn rounds and rounds and got me so dizzy till i felt like vomiting, Z. I've one video t show you guys and i bet my image will be ruin after you people seeing my fugly video :

Just a form of entertaiment for you guys i guess, just in case my blog is too boring, ^^!

I miss you no more.

2009-07-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

Thought of blogging at this point of time partly because i've got nothing better to do and partly cos i realised my blog will be dying sooner or later if i continue to leave it in lurch. Kind of sick at this moment, just woke back up from a good long hours.
And i think someone should just burn my sch/principal/vp/dm because of what happened today and it totally turned the spirit of me going to sch off, like t-o-t-a-l-l-y.

I woke up this morning, was happy that i can finally go back t sch, cab t sch instead cos i thought im really running late this time round, reached but i wasn't late ( how great ), uniform check after temperature taking session, my temperature was perfectly fine, i swear.. who the hell on Earth would think 36.2 degrees means fever man, -.- wish somebody could slap some senses to my principal/vp, Mr liaw then send me down to sickbay to sit, i thought im able to go home but yet -.-, parents must be in presence to fetch me home, but Mom's working and her office's lacking of workers, so obviously it's impossible for her to make it to school to fetch me home.

I do looked like Ultraman here

Thus i have to sit in the stuffy, warm, boring and uncomfortable sick bay from 10:30 to 1:30, just the thought of it puts me off like hello, you can't do anything there, they don't provide you with movie/music/or even better a laptop or psp or something entertaining though usage of handphones are allowed, but still i sit until my butts are stiff la pls. Damn motherfkingly pissed off, so i just sat there and sleep while listening to mp3, and wake up to finish my Twilight while listening to mp3, i wonder how on Earth did i managed to survive through this torturment, i think my sch suck totally.

Finally 1:30 after like millions and millions of years, left for backgate and it wasn't open -.-, Mr Sim saw me and thought im running away from Smart classes, spoked to him i even showed him my mask to show him i wasn't trying to run away but was sent back home, after minutes of explaation i finally was able to get out of that fucked up place like thankgod.

Sunlight's too strong for me to open my eyes properly

I think school is very crappy seriously they did nothing good expect for teaching you knowledges which is not really going to help much and on the other hand, they teach you about useless common senses which anyone who've a butt would know la, like a dick loh seriously. Another thing which pissed me off totally was, i wasn't having fever in the morning, just minor flu and coughs, but after being locked up in the damn room for good 3 hours or so, my minor sickness became major ones like fever, headache and even worse flu and coughs, i think they are trying to kill me so badly lmao. O:
I hope i won't get sent home again tomorrow like i've missed sch for 2 days and if i dont bucked up like real badly i think im gng to fail badly this time round and i'll get damn worked up and chop everyone in the sch to death i swear, ^^.

Bow down to me.

2009-07-21T19:05:00.000-07:00

Blogger have fking problem and i still managed to find out how to post after figuring here and there for what seems like millionz of years. ^^.

Done a screenshot of the ediotic blogger.
I wonder how bloggers survive if blogger continues to give problems! Poor us poor us.

Skipped school after telling Mummy that i've fever, she scared i got H1N1 and made me stay at home, thanks to all the pigs, chickens, ducks, or any animals, Im able to stay at home for today :D!

Im very lazy to elaborate what'd happened for the past few days, just schl and schl and schl.
Im going to meet Cassandra'l later to get Mummy's birthday present :D, hope she'll like it ( even if she don't i hope she'll fake as if she like it, LOL )

Expect people to respect you when you yourself dont do yourself proud ? Joke. ( 9th day without you )

2009-07-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

Do i take your breathe away like how you took mine.. ?
xoxo.

Im laughing mad now at how people can feel so tiny of themselves, to the extend that they even copy people's name, im not trying to act like i own the name Jansen, but just feel kind of sad for you, by using someone elses' name when you yourself have a nice beautiful name given by your parents and you don't respect it

What's this, don't try to tell me it's some kind joke pls, i don't find it funny like hello, can you just fking stick to what you have and give up on what you don't because it's fking stupid to persua for something that you have on your own yet wanting to use someone elses'.

Even on msn, there are people copying nicks which someone elses' have thought for good long hours, and you just sit there and copy bit from here and there and continue like as if nothing happened and that irks me the most, if you're not even proud of something which you can think of while other's can't then you're really a failure in life aren't you.

And please, don't mofoly copy what i even typed in blogs, like im doing some reflecting on myself and you, down there doing your's like how i did mine, it's really disgusting to see the 2nd me which is really not me, but you who's trying to act like somebody else without any dignity, i'll not name you, you, you and you out just in case you felt too ashame of yourself and wanted to change for a better, i shall spare your dignity :D.

We fell out of place.

2009-07-18T06:32:00.000-07:00

I've done everything i could..
I missed your face, I missed your kiss, I even missed our arguments.
So tell me how you feel, for real.

Do you think of me.

I met up with Cassandra first in bugis this morning, we're early birds. Met, and off the street to look for white short for Simin, end up we were window shopping for our own items :B. Aftermath, Simin and Daze reached, followed by Yeelin, walked around street and Simin finally bought her white short after long consideration ( what a relief! ).

Afterward, went over to Junction to buy movie tickets for 'The haunting in connecticut', follow by buying cigg at Junction, approached alot of people to help us by, but.... failed ): am i not seductive enough. Slacked around and had a few puffs, down to Arcade, a round of DDR with Simin, my stamina are getting from bad to worse, how great.

Went up to Food court for lunch as there's too much people over at Mos Burger. Cassandra and Yeelin and Simin had lunch, didn't plan to have anything as im too broke after buying the movie ticket, b-r-o-k-e!

Off to have another puff, and walked around Junction, bought milktea as im too thirsty, continue walking and suddenly i felt like vomiting, no idea why too, probably because of the milktea, went over to staircase to pour everything out, nothing came though, mind you i had nothing today, totally nothing.

Aftermath, went outside movie theater to slacked, took a balloon but gave it back when we're going inside for movie because it's such an eyesore. Sat down and after a mofoly long advertisment, the movie finally started, i didn't watched at all because i thought it'll be very scary but they said not really scary, just kind of sad, i regretted for not watching it, :\.

Aftermath, went over LongJohn's for dinner, ate Simin's share, thank you ^^! Slacked awhile and continue to Mrt station, had a few puff when i was walking there, everyone's so sad today, for idk what reason, cheerup everyone, im here for you guys! Luv.

The songs are so heartbreaking. ( 7th day without you )

2009-07-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hearing Cassandra's blogsong while i continue with my post, her blogsong is like tear bomb la, so heartbreaking ^^, a song tells a millionz storys and i believes it, every part of a piece of song, stands for every precious memory.

A photo of me incase my blog's too wordy.

Went t sch as usual, today's a pretty bored day for me, :\ fug the sch. Slacked around in sch aftermath went for lunch with Pim, talked a little, had baked rice just the cheezes are well enough for me to be full ): but still i stuff everything into my mouth, be amazed ( im nt trying to act like a small appetite idiot la LOL )

Cabbed home aftermath because my leg's fking swollen since yesterday and now, still as swollen, use comp for awhile and went over to Clementi headquater for reporting, i thought this would end pretty perfectly, and god knows if biological mother are needed to be presence, so that goes my high hope for my closing case.

Quarrelled with Mother on cab because the fking stepdad called her and complain to her that im gng to Tampines, oi cb _l_ stop sucking up to my mum i tell you, you better have some limit, my tolerance have limits too. And mum just simply dont allow me to go out, what's with her gosh.

I asked her to name out anything that i've not fulfilled for the past few days, i off my comp at the strike of 10 and went to bed, go to sch everyday, nv skip and programme, and now this is how you thrash my hardworks.

Just if you could fking name out anything that i've done wrongly or badly for the past few days i'll stop going out, that's my bet with you.

Still, i ignored mother's words and went over to Tamp to find Cassandra and Yeelin, bought bubbletea after meeting them as im fking thirsty. Walked around the 3 fking big shopping mall there till my leg are really going to break, went on browsing on studs and it's tempting me to pierce back my labret. Temptation oh temptation.

Sent Yeelin off to bus stop and me and Cassandra went over to mrt station, had a staring incident with this oh mother fkingly fat malay middle age woman who's trying to act cute by putting on Geekspectacles, which make her eyes fuging small and fugly.

She kept on staring at me and i couldn't tolerate anymore and i started staring back like real badly, like this...

And darling was laughing mad at my behaviour i swear i was behaving like an idiot. More funny things happened when we're in the redline's train, i swear, we laughed the loudest there and i think im very Singaporean because im the first one the squeeze in the cabin when everyone's far way behide me.

P/s: Im meeting my luvlys tmrw :B.
P/s/s: My pimples are poping out, anyone can tell me how to kill them all :@. *angry.

I believe in karma. ( 6th day without you )

2009-07-16T07:16:00.000-07:00

To Jingci :

Bimbo, i know today's been a really bad day for you, all the pain and the tears, nobody could ever understand how you feel. And me, only could sit there and watch you being hurt over and over again, i don't feel good i swear, nobody would, it hurts to see my precious you to be hurt like that.

Just remember that, although i couldn't help much but my shoulder will always be here for you, you cry i'll lend you my shoulder, you happy i'll celebrate with you, when you need somebody, i'll be here for you.

Dont give on life, your mum needs you, she's at the weakest point of her life now but i believed she'll be happy and recover fast if she sees you being happy, im happy that you stand on your view and never gives in till the last critical moment.

We all know you didn't said those words, and we believes in you.
Cheerup, Jansen.

To myself :

Oi JansenLee奶子, tomorrow your case will end, be sure to maintain what you have now, don't wait till everything's too late then cry behide bars, you're a teenager alr, learn to think, takecare of your body, stop getting sick once in a while okeh.
Muack, i love myself.

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Today, went to sch, i got my knee injured real badly during lunch, i was sparring with Anderson when i knocked onto that fking metal cupboard, fell onto the floor, knee swollen until like fishballxzx, side of waist cuts and bruises form, pain die.

Aftermath, piang cab down to Jurong for some problems, slacked with Simin, she's still as bitchy as usual, and i walked like a baika, sadisitic ): i hope i can teleport la, mofo. Simin slapped me you know ):!! She actually slapped me, she slapped me damn hard, i hate her, roflmao okay la actually.... Im the one who slapped her first :D!

Aftermath, train home with Bimbo and Siewboon, talked and back home, im having the mofo fever now, oh em gee, can i just fking die ):!!! This is horrible, im sweating like hell, ):
Byebye la.

Everyone's moving on with life perfectly, except for me. ( 4th day without you )

2009-07-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

Who do i think of now, if it's not you.
Who do i rely on now, if it's not you.
Who's shoulder do i lean and sleep on, if it's not you.
Who's love to keep me alive and warm, if it's not you.
Who'll do me some good and let me forget you, if you'd already forgotten me..

Today's another fine day for me :B, god damn happy because i've got my phone back from Mother, ^^ from now on my number will be 84112879. Remember to msg me your numbers guys :B heh.

Morning, went to sch as usual aftermath etcetc, had recess and etcetc and continues with lessons. Went for community service for one hour after smart classes, and did i mention that i copied down everything when i was having smart ^^, pretty confidence for tmrw's contraction test, first time feeling so confidence for maths.

Aftermath, went over to Sembawang 3Tou basketball court to find Clara after hearing the news of her and max breaking up ): daughter, i'll be here for you, you've got great friends around you, let him go if you're not happy, love is not about owning it's all about giving, if your dad, me is able to let go, why wouldn't you? You'll always be my great daughter right ^^! Smile like how you used to be.

Went over to Mum's office after bidding goodbye with Clara and co, had dinner, went over to buy my Prepaid card for my phone. Hahaha, happy to the max leh ^^!!!

Happy birthday Weiai sis!

Third day without you.

2009-07-13T05:24:00.000-07:00

你离开的时候有没有一点舍不得.
你要走了, 也带走所有快乐, 我们许下一个愿望, 要在一起决不分离, 我怎么放弃了.
太软弱了.

Simin that bitch's forcing me to change url with her ): should I? Or shouldn't I. She want to change to 5-kissandtell.bs.com and me, 7-partytilldawn.bs.com omg, this is so tempting ain't it ):!!!!! Came to think of it, i just changed my blog url days back then, and now, i've the urge to change again i swear :@, totally again, suggestions pretty please.

Can't believe i actually went to sch today, i seriously have the skip-sch-and-sleep feeling, but due to the cases i can't ): not anymore, if not i wouldn't have good report, and i can't close my case, suck cock eh.

Morning, reached sch then lessons, and today's lesson seems pretty smooth to me, teachers were good to me, classmates are happy :B and me, satisfied. Recess, ate waffle Yongjian bought for me, thanks ^^. Aftermath, lessons continues and i almost dozed off, bloody sadisitic hurh. Lunch, drank a bottle of greentea satifies me well, thanks Yongjian for the greentea again, roflmao.

Aftermath, went for detention, was asked to do some paper work, kind of slacking, and Fazura was damn stupid i swear, i kept on oing her to stop her nonsense lmao. Idiotic her ^^, and i guess i'll have to request mum to return me my phone, because life's s misery without it, wish me luck guys :D.

Memories gliding pass..

2009-07-12T02:20:00.000-07:00

I know what you're trying to explain that night, but that's not i want, if im being unreasonable i'll leave to make you happier, i know it's kind of useless to talk about all these now, i won't regret, will i ? I really sounded as if i don't care last night but im just trying to put up a front because im afraid to let you see my weak side, but still, i couldn't bring the courage to forget you. If there's a choice between remembering the story but continue suffering or forget the memory which contains of you, i'll choose not to lose any memory of you because it's so important, till the day i die, it'll be on my mind, heart, eyes.. having you as part of my life it's enough.

Heartbeat as one.

I've got more than 100 photos actually but Cassandra's lazy to send everyone of us, so guys put up with this few photos instead, lmao. I met Cassandra at Amk ytd first, aftermath discussed with Simin where to meet up, she suggested Orchard and we suggested Tpy, in the end agreed to meet at Orchard, reached and that Simin called us and said she's at Tpy instead :@, omg la her pea brain, LOL.

See we've so much of group photos yesterday lmao, self timer is very useful i swear ^^! Anyway aftermath Daze cab down to Fareast to meetup with us, walked around there, everyweek also go there, nothing much left for us to explore i supposed, got bored of that place so decided to cab down to Cineleisure instead, due to the max hotness of the sun we cab down although the distance is like a few streets away la, but i just effing lazy to continue walking.

P/s: all the photos are non editted except for the first one which is editted by Simin, didn't bother to edit because i've lost my photoshop because i reformat my fking laptop shit this.

Reached, puffed a stick or two, stroll inside for walks, took neoprint oh been ages since i've lasted taken neoprint, afterthat, went for the caferia outside for a rest, ordered drinks and Cassandra and Simin started studying and me taking a nap cos im very tired these few days lol, and Daze kept on disturbing people because he's bored like me :D. Aftermath, went out for 2nd round of puffing with Simin, cigg machine lmao.

Aftermath, went off to Cck, because sky's still bright it'll be damn bored if we just go home like that, but Cck is like so bored as well, we're being so lifeless right, :\. Hello Singapore's just a dot what'd you expect man, but no matter where we go, as long as im with them i'll be contented :B.
Thanks dearests for the day alright, i'll stay strong as i've promised and thanks Jane for comforting me last night, :B you understands me the best.

And today.... when i was browsing for Lpxx ( CrayonShinchan )'s desktop wallpaper, i saw this super cute kid, he looked just like him omg, he's eyebrow as thick as mine, and he's so chubbeh, cute okie, I aspire to be him! Hehe, below's a picture of him! :

P/s: My mother is in love with Bof like me.P/s/s: I hate my mum because she hates KimHyunJoong and supports Kimbum instead.P/s/s/s: Im hungry and nobody's home yet, pathetic ):!!!

Strongest front i can put.

2009-07-10T00:53:00.001-07:00

All those words, did you ever spare a thought for me, or let's put it easier for you to answer, did you even put in effort? I doubt so, but if you did, thanks. If you don't, i still have to thank you, thank you for acting as if you cared so much, atleast im happy for that period of time even if it's the fakest happiness i could ever get, tolong you leh if you're just playing with me, let me off, i tolong you okeh, you need me kneel down or not? Why not, you try it yourself, tried running this relationship though it's my solo play, try having to miss you so much yet you dont give a damn, try putting up a strong front in front of you even though im really breaking down, try sharing the person you loved's heart with someone else, try crying yourself to sleep whenever you break down, try it. From this minute onwards, i'll have to accountant everything to my happiness, not your's, don't tell me you'll wait for me when you won't and can't, i dont yearn for forever, but just lasting memories which i could keep for lifetime.

Put yourself in my shoes.

Hi everyone ^-^, im slowly recovering alr, just back from sch, you see ah i tell you, today sch was originally ended at 12.30, and i can only leave at 4 but i tell Misslee that i've got extra tuition so i left at 3 instead, if not i really will die la, laocheebye.

Tmrw will be the day im meeting my luvlys (L) omg, i miss them so much, lmao, thanks for cheering me up through sms just now Cassandra, Simin. I've learn yet another lesson last night :D.

Bye~!

Treat it as im not here anymore..

2009-07-08T05:53:00.000-07:00

Im totally sick like a mofo which is much more worst than 2 days ago. Im sleeping practically everyday because my body is like shutting down whenever it sees bad, so i think now you can see how weak my body is now. I seriously can't talk anymore i swear, i tried so hard to talk, but nothing seems to come out from my mouth.

Today recess, i went to find MissLee over at her office as she wanted to talk to me, went inside sat down, she ask me, why do i always looked so low and tired these few days, have i been sleeping rather lately these few days, and i told her that half of the reason is because im really sick and it hurts to open eyes even, and the other half's because i don't felt like talking because i find talking gets me into trouble and delay the time for me to return to original seat and i have to continuing sitting in front which i dont really like, i swear..

The conversation's pretty relaxing as she's a nice teacher although she did all these to me, but what's the main reason ? Because i walked this path down myself, now this is all the consequences i have to pay, i won't be complaining i supposed or i don't even have the rights to, lmao.

And seriously readers, im not being emo like some typical kid or attetion seeker, im just wanting to grow up with my mindset and learn to accept, forgive and forget, being too childish sometimes don't really do me much good.. Aftermath, went to Northpoint for lunch with Pim and Tequila, then bused home with her at Interchange, saw Bestie and Jinjie. ^^.

Sketch.me.cry

2009-07-07T05:17:00.000-07:00

If one day i would be gone, i'll be your happy memories.
If one day i couldn't make you smile like how you use to be, i'll leave..

Im such a genius for waking up so early in the morning despite me being really sick like a bird, my mum forced me up, and prepared and off to sch with Tequila, i totally lost my voice like omgbbq, it's totally gone and i have an ahgua voice now, you know that kind of very low and sandy sandy voice lmao, i refuse to talk alot in sch today anyway, half of the reason being it's really hurting alot another half, my voice's too sexy :B.

Reached sch, gave MissLee my mc aftermath lessons after lessons, was like totally shitz, im feeling so terribly, but i shouldn't be telling MissLee at this point of time because she'll kill me if i skip anymore school, since that's the case so i just lie myself to sleep for awhile despite sitting the most front, i think teachers have found out that im sick because i kept on wanting to close my eyes when im listening to class and can't talk properly which i usually don't.

Aftermath, i stay back for Smart lesson, for that one whole hour, i was msging msging and msging with Jingyi's phone, lmao, im really so sick hello.. almost died, it's like 123456789 years sicne i've been so sick, oh em gee, my throat is burning hot, life's hell life's hellxzxzx life's hellxzxzxzxz!!! 3, started my detention but since today Misslee's not going to stay back in sch i can do whatever i want during that 1 hour, so i started exploring around my school, boring. Sat down outside Discipline office and read books ( i only got chinese textbook as i only brought chinese textbook home today )

Nobody i know's there to entertain me leh ):!!! Lmao, so i think that's all for today, i really felt proud of myself for being able to preserve till end of everything regardless of the torturing of the sickness, but i swear im really sick leh!! ):!!

Love stuck when memories stopped.

2009-07-06T06:36:00.000-07:00
我们说好就算分开依然是朋友, 时间说我们不可能在问候.
又到分叉的路口, 你向左我向右.

Morning i woke up meet up with Simin at Yishun mrt because she's afraid that i might get lost lmao, afterwards train down to Bugis to meet up with Cassandra, went over to shop, Simin bought her heineken shirt and wore with me.

Aftermath, train down to Vivo to find Daze, went over to the water thing which i dont know what it's called and take photos though it's raining ^^, kop someone's bag and it's so motherfking scary lmao, afterwards cab down to Douby to meet up with Daze, bought cigg and puff, went down for DDR.

Simin and Cassandra was looking at one of the cute guy there, as slutty as ever ^^, aftermath, went up for another puff and went over to Starbucks or something to rest, Daze had his noodles there and me and simin was puffing over and over again and Cass, studying and smoking, funny scene.

Sat there for a while then train home, had a little nap over Cass's shoulder because im too sick, my throat suddenly hurts like shit i dont know why and i just got my temperature taken and it's 38.4, pray hard that i've H1N1 O: I think that's all, im too sick to elaborate more.

Friendster or Facebook ?

2009-07-05T19:15:00.000-07:00
Early this morning i woke up, etcetc, and i started blog hopping until finally i've finished hopping all my desired blogs, and i got too bored so i went over to Friendster, lmao and below pictures are what i get for trusting Friendster too much.

( Sorry guys, bear with the size of the pictures, i uploaded it with photobucket and i forget to change the size when i uploaded it lmao so the the outcome is a horrendously huge picture :D! )

When i proceeded to accept the friend request i just couldn't succeed, is my eyes playing tricks on me or what, like hello, firstly friendster is lag follows by all the bugs like ' Hello im female 23/yo this year, want to see me on cam ' which made me laugh like a retard, roflmao.

And now, this joke's getting bigger, i can't even accept friend request now, look, Friendster origin for you to make friends and add friends, if you can't even add/accept friends now what's the fucking use of using friendster when it's so lag plus it's filled with bugs ( dont know when my laptop's gonna die at it's hand . )

Actually i wasn't planning to go back to Friendster but hello all my friends are stored there and facebook is too high tech for me lmao, i simply don't understand every single function of it. And now, when i trusted Friendster so much and Friendster started giving me all these crappy problems lmao. Just imagine, one fine day... there's this guy you like or good looking guy added you on friendster and wanted to make friends with you.

But friendster wouldn't allow and rejected his friend request, oh em gee, lmao, i couldn't imagine ^^, i would die thinking at that scene, but i guess with this kind of service i would have to stick to facebook for the time being until friendster gets better ^^!
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Hahahaha, i pawn Lim Simin in the arse why waking up earlier than her, Lim Simin, call yourself a Loser when you sees this, lmaolmao, Cassandra's even later than us so she's a double loser, :B. Im going out later, will update again when im back home, I hope i'll see PASSY's appearance when im back home, lmaolmao!

Entertainments.

2009-07-05T03:46:00.001-07:00

Hahahaha, roflmao, here's the second part of the conversation with the disgusting Karry Steven, he made me laugh like an ass, wtf.

Karry: Yo gay ass, i got dced yesterday sissy boy, sissygayboy you there ?
Me ( Just woke up and saw this and lmao ): oh hi disgusting sore loser ^^! Small dick dont cry leh, Sissy also dick bigger than you, you think you who, my dog la ^^.

Karry: Hmm, i'd be happy if i have a dick to fuck myself, i wonder if have any, i wonder if you use it.

Me: You dont have to wonder, definately bigger than your's and use it everyday, omg did you just said you need to fuck yourself ? Pathetic, LOL. Hahahaha, you've to fuck yourself wtf roflmao, pathetic piece of shit. You so ehsai you come out show la, YOU DON'T THINK LIMBEI TALK T YOU NICELY YOU DUASAI HOR _l_.
Talk leh, why dont dare appear online lmao.

Karry: I see you're very interested in me, what's the diff between online and offline -.- ?

Me: Use brain la, if there's no difference they put online and offline for what to use for what.

Karry: Im still talking so what's the difference dumbo.

Me: It's obviously because i find it a difference so i will say it's got it's difference right -.-, pea brain.

Karry: it's the same to me.

Me: then your problem la, lmao, i got say you must online for me or not, wtf.

Karry: No i never say i would.

Me: Then you kp so much gumlan LOL, self contradiciting.

Karry: Heh by the way since you are not telling if you're gay or butch im lazy to talk to a freak like you, and now im going to delete you from my msn, since i find it useless to talk to a sissy gay boy like Jansen.

Me: ( burst out laughing ) So useless sial you, you call yourself a man ? A man who can't win a Sissy in talking back ? I think you're a small dick freak, HAHA, hariless too, and i never force you to ask me so much question and begun to add me on msn and now forcing you not to delete me right =.=.

Karry: (Went offline and started tagging at my tagboard as usual.)

Roflmao leh, Karry, if you think im gay then find ways to prove it, if you think im butch, find ways to prove it too la, you brainless or what, lmao.

If you really are so man then prove to us that you are a man instead of online and offline and finding excuses such as you disconnected and what so ever to cover up for yourself la, I think even if im a Sissygayboy like you say right, i also more man than you?

Don't you think so yourself? Im a freak so what are you? Are you going to prove to other's that you're so many zillion times better than me by running away from a Sissy in your eyes Mr. Karry Steven, the real man that nobody admited except for yourself, lmao.

you really are some sore loser in my eyes okay, not happy, add me back again i can ans all your questions all over again? Try me? Want sue me isit? Hello, look at the conversation la, who started this joke first, lmao.

do you think you're so perfect in everyone's eyes when you don't even dare to show your real identity?

Starting point.

2009-07-04T23:40:00.003-07:00

Im so bored at home i tell you, Cassandra very laocheebye i tell you, she dont want update her blog loh, Laocheebye. Okay la, today i good mood, i give story telling ^^!! So i think most of you know who's the PASSY right, his name is what Karry Steven, horrendous name for horrendous people ^^.

So yesteday after i replied him with my msn he immediately added me i supposed, but i wasn't online because im out, waste my time with this kind of person only. Hahaha :P, so after i was back from shopping outside i accepted his Msn add but he wasn't online ^-^, so me went to do my things etcetc, after for like i dont know how long ( don't bother remembering this kind of irking thing ) he came online ^^.

And so the conversation goes like this : Karry : Hi, am PASSY so you gay or a girl

Me : Your problem ? I don't want tell you also lanlan ^^.

Karry : You say find out myself i ask you you dont dont want tell me i really do think you are gay tho or bisexual.

Me : so if i dont want to tell you, you find out yourself with other method loh.i thought you so clever ^^, suits you, your mind not mine.

Karry : How can i find out when i dont even know you -.-.

Me : then your problem loh.

Karry : Why you dont want tell?

Me : I have right not to tell you right? Tell you for fk, i can choose who to tell it to right?

Karry : Yes.

Me : So now i choose not to tell you, what can you do. Hahaha.

Karry : nothing really, but it just convince me even more that you're either gay or a sissy boy that's bisexual.. or a girl/butch.

Me : Yah suits you ^^ i dont care, bloody sadistic, HAHAHA.

Karry : Why am i sadistic ?

Me : cos you're finding out someone's sexual preference which you don't even know, wtf LOL.

Karry : Hmm im a person that gets easily ( very ) curious, that's why.

When i was about to reply with : I don't have to satisfy your curiousty and he went offline, most probably deleted me from msn. Hahaha, such a loser ^^!!

So, again ?

2009-07-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

You said i was your love.

I wonders why am i always so happy whenever i meet Cassandra and Simin ^-^, so today morning i force Mum to wake me up because im afraid that i would over sleep and ruin this outing like how i used to be, so around 7 plus, Mum's alr shaking me to wake. Hahaha, woke up bath and prepare, waited for them to online and discuss on the details.

Out of the house at around 11 30, went over to Yishun platform to meet up with Tequila, then train down to Amk to meet up with Cassandra and Simin, I swear they were fking late like wtf okay, me and Tequila's early bird ^^!!! Cassandra arrived first and followed by Simin, they were wearing the same like twins, so cute :B.

Trained down to Orchard first, reached and went over to Fareast to shop, bought my top and bottom and cardingan ):, cost me a bomb and i think im very 节省 because i only used 3/4 of the money Mum gave, great archivement :P!

Aftermath, trained down to Bugis, saw some familiar faces there, went walking around in circles but saw nothing eye catching, time flies okeh, it's already 7 and Simin's boyfr is rushing her to meetup with him, so we train back home, the cabin's filled with Indians i swear, Simin and me was laughing mad about a woman who looks like Xu chunmei, like wow ^^!!!

Afterwards home, i reached home around 8 plus today, how great ^^, and thanks Cassandra.l for making this prettypretty blogskin which i longed wanted for me, thanks okay, i muack you ^^!! Must always smile like today forever okay, ^^, luv.

Stucked here all along.

2009-07-02T06:50:00.000-07:00
I went shopping with Tequila yesterday, happy ^^, Im nt gng to sch tmrw, afternoon go shopping with Tequila and Pimpassorn, Saturday meetup with Cass Simin and Tequila and go shopping again ^^ and Sunday meetup with Yuhui Yujun Xuething Peiwen and co.

Wonderful week, dont jealous yeow, hehe.

Square one.

2009-06-30T05:45:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to upload all my photos ^^, god damn happy, okeh la readers, be happy i blog okeh, i dragged myself to blog because im way too tired. So yesterday was the first day of school and early morning woke up changed and met Xueting and Tequila at mrt station as usual, bused down school, was so tired. New sitting arragement which made me angry everyone's got a proper seat except for me, i have to take over Chengzhi's place and shit right infront along without anyone by my side, shit this leh, shit everything =.=, not much lesson because of new timetable, new science teacher, which i think her makeup ruins everything, she just puts on so much thick thick makeups and the reddest lipstick you could ever find most probably. After recess, Yongjing got some lj taiji with Sec 2's, went out to help him, only me okeh ^^, im such a hero, Yongjian thank me when you sees this leh, HAHAHAHA, they cannot talk win me so they have to pangsua ^^, yay, i settled it with 21th century's method, hehe. Aftermath, bus down to Northpoint with Tequila to meetup with Yuhui, Xueting and co, ate longjohn, slacked around Northpoint for a while before busing home, i was planning to go home la that's my plan okeh, i really was planning to go home until Tequila blocked the bus door, Yuhui dragged my hand and Xueting trap me in the leg. I was totally trapped by evil people in the bus ):, i kept on screaming like : I want to go down, let me off, i wanna go home i very tired!!!!!! But they just ignore me and move on with the bus ride, so in the end, i was dragged to Sunplaza's mac to study slack with them, =.=, camwhored all that, after a while i was whining that i wanted to go cut hair, Yuhui wanted too so went over to her house there wait for her to go up and changed and etc. Went over to bus-stop, boarded and had a little talk with her on the bus ^^, fun, alighted went over chongpang area to walkwalk, and went for haircuts, and i hate the person who cut my hair okeh, a piece of shit. I am no difference from botak now. And today i got a very bad news, classmates can returns home at the strike of 3 and i need to stay back for 1 more hours alone in sch because the teacher was plain picking on me, should i laugh that she put so much attention on me or should i cry =.=, fk the world okeh, fk everything.Bye

Luv.

2009-06-27T07:36:00.001-07:00

Hi, i luv my very pretty sister ^^, she's always so sweet, always cheer me up when im down, so sweet of her right, :B, you all don't snatch her i tell you, she's part of me ^^, if you guys dare to lay a finger on her.

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I'll chop you, hekhekhek :D

My dearest sis~!, I know you're feeling low these few days, so must faster cheerup and be my happyhappy cutecute cheerfulcheerful prettypretty sweetsweet Sis okeh, if not i'll be very sad to lose my wonderful sis ):! Anyway, thankyou for all those enrouragements, im so touched loh!~ Luvluv you ^^

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K, saw the Screenshot ? ^^, that one is Simin my baobei, Cass Ewyna and Simin went out w/o me today ): ( heartbreaks ), they very heartless right!!!! sadxzxzx, then Cass was telling me how Simin looked like after her new hair cut ^^, the person in the Ss is Simin and her new hairstyle, bowl hairstyle, how pretty hehe, stay chio my dear ^^, next time try bomberman hairstyle okeh, muack.

23652646, so not over you.

2009-06-26T07:56:00.000-07:00

我只能放手.
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I miss you when you comes home late at night and webcam with me.
I miss you when you find funny videos and entertain me.
I miss you when you drives me here and there.
I miss you when you hug me to sleep.
I miss you when you say i love you.
I miss you every now and then.

I practically laze my day off, was actually planning to meet up with Simin and co, but woke up late so cancelled, im really sorry babes.

Are we still going to love like before.

2009-06-25T06:33:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since i've a proper post i supposed ( insert super act cute facexzxz ), so im gng to just eleborate what i've been doing for the past few days, be it short or boring or what.

Wednesday, went over to Arcade's with Yuhui and co, slacked around from morning till evening, pretty fun, i've mia Arcade since few months ago, like finally im back teehee ^^, and i miss the every of them, had some talks with Yuhui and Tequila over there, evening time went over to Yuhui's place to watch The exorcist, effing scary O:, we watched the trailer only la, cos full movie's not available.

Around 9 plus Tequila and co went home, left me and Yujun and Yuhui over, slacked, heart to heart for few hours, watched parts of scary movie 1, was laughing mad alone since Yujun&Yuhui falls asleep and started to ignore me like some guailan and cheebye kia and hurt my hweelings ):!! Watched videos alone till like 6.30 in the morning until Yuhui's parents went to work, moved sofa to her room, took her sofa as my bed O: slept for like 3 hours peacefully and 3 hours torturing myself to sleep.

Woke up, ate some cookies for breakfast, and trained over to Amk to meet Cass and Ewyna, HAHA, couldn't spot them first, :B, was wanting to go over to Fareast for dinner, but didn't cos looked as if going to rain, slacked at some tunnel inside Amkhub's, heart to heart with them, mother called and we quarrelled, i scream my the hell out of myself and everyone's like looking at me, went home to packed my stuff and left, called Tequila and co, went over find them.

Slacked around at Arcade's agn, Adrian went over to find me from Tamp, how nice of him :D, met him, slacked at Mos burger's for a while, then went over to Yuhui's void deck to slacked with him, fancy him keep on scaring me with ghost tales O:, went over to the rooftop of carparks to sleep around 4, i slept alone Adrian nv sleep cos he tell me he got nightmares ( ROFLMAO ^^ ).

Around 7 went over to Yuhui's agn to sleep, just slept my morning off with and went over for Movie at Amkhub's, watched 'Drag me to hell' for the 2nd times cos im forced to ^^, screamed my lungs off but most part of the movie i was laughing mad still because i've watched it before, after the movie, Adrian and me went off cos we're too tired, Adrian sent me home, he treat me Kfc's HAHA, so nice of him again, after that sent him off for 969, home, slept.

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Today, went over to meet Ewyna and Cass at Bishan around 3, was planning to go gym, but Cass's a bitch for being sick today, so changed our plan, walk rounds and rounds around Bishan and got ourselves really bored there, so we trained down to Cityhall.

Reached, went over to Penisular's to check for Biker Jacket, dont have leh ):!!!! ( heart breaks ), walked around, saw people tattooing, so tempting ^^, but i know i'll regret for sure, so put off the thought off ^-^. Trained back to Amk, bought Mango ice with mango sauce, ^^, so nice, went over to the Tunnel to heart to heart, thanks for the shoulders and advices when im breaking down Cass and Ewyna, luv you 2 to the max, we got chased out of the Tunnel by Security, so sad and aftermath, home.

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I know i always said nevermind our every disappoitment, but i minded i know im being childish now, but it's kind of hard to hide all those feelings, im sorry i've given nothing but troubles to you, thanks for being so patience with me, but baby, i just need to feel secure, i might be thinking abit too much...but that's how i feel now.

Jackpot.

2009-06-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

Me very happy now ^-^, this morning, meet Simin around 12 plus at Doubyghaut, acutally Cass coming at 3, but she tell us her tongue swollen like sausage and was having fewer so we decided to let her rest at home.
Reached, went to see how bunk looks like now, kind of sad when i see how bunk looks like now ): imagine people tear your house down, -sighs. Walked around in PlazaSing, then train down to Vivo as me and Simin got nothing to do, reached Vivo went up to skyscraper, walk circles inside the water, found a place sat down and started camwhoring lol! That's the hobby of bitches, dont mind us yeow!
After that was bored there after criticising people like for 8776575 times and went off to Bugis, still as boring over there, same old shop same old people O:! Aftermath, saw tooty during the at Bugis platform, went over to PlazaSing to meet Percival, his stead, and Ash ^^, very fun okeh, lol!
After that went arcade to slack and camwhore for second round, so cool right, we are so photogenic, LOL ^^. After camwhoring, watch Tooty play Jubeat, so fun, me wanna try it somedays, C:!
And separate way with Tooty and Simin at Station and train home, ^^, me happy today, happy for me too okay.

Sarcastic.

2009-06-18T10:24:00.000-07:00

Me mouth very pain now LOL!!! Okay la, me went to for piercing today, no kick okay no kick, only bleed alot LOL.

Okay so today goes like this, morning met up with Cassandra and Ewyna over at Semb mrt station, so happy to see my dear girls today agn, me luv them very much okay, walk over to bus stop, we're like idiots trying to find the bus stop to old woodlands, 865 down, walked one big round to find the piercing shop, and finally we reached there, C:!

Happyshitszxc, darling was hestitating if she should pierce her tongue, so me and ewyna waited for her to make decision, finally after much considering, she decided to pierce with me, hehehe ^^.

She went to choose stud and pierced first, walauszxc, damn nervous for her, :\ i grab onto her hand very tightly okay, like hello LOL, after her was my turn O: me very nervous so i grabbed onto Ewyna's hand very tightly, okay la, no kick okay, seriously NO KICK, haha -_-, k, nv really bleed alot when pierced through, and off we went talking as if we have our mouth full, cabbed down to woodlands library, sat there to do hmwk, me do one question and gave up :o, very difficult leh, after that me sat there and my mouth started to bleed for no fking reason, and stopped.

After that went Mos burger to eat :\, hungry okay, but we practically cannot eat anything so ordered corn soup, saw cousin over there bide goodbye to them, then after that Tequila called to tell us they have problems over at their side, what century alr -.- still taiji, went over Tpy to meet them, settled and went Amk to stroll with Ewyna, bought my nose stud and went home :\.

Anyway, me hate fat pig okay, you fat alot oil, nevermind okay, me dont care, but you still copy people, you dont have originality isit, -_- gross roasted pig, you go take a look in the mirror la, i think mirror will brk but nvm, worth a try, tag you then you went to delete it, what's this man, really so speechless ?

Okay la -.- crap, you dont post until so suki la hor, want copy, copy people who looks the same like you, for example y.l i nv mention name ^^, so dont think it's you, but i know you know who you are, so bye, ^^ you not happy you unban me okay, me comfirm gan you agn till you speechless for 2nd round.

Your song across my skin.

2009-06-16T22:41:00.000-07:00

This is the biker jacket's pic, i only got black :\, suggestion pls.
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I think you guys most probably alr realised i changed my blogsongs, heh, i realised alot people like my vulgar song, HAHA, so cool right that song, anybody want me to add it back O: ? I need comments pls, hehe.

Anyway, i finally managed to find biker jacket, and now the problems is the capping very slow loh, plus i don't know what colour to choose, O: should i choose black or milky brown ? Any suggestion!

k back to the topic, to that him/~~she~~, until now, i still dont see im wrong in anyway okayszxc, not-at-all, seriously shouldnt you be reflecting some sense into yourself, okay nevermind, i don't think you'll and you will wanna even think/do it, cos you're practically too senseless and self-centered, i don't like people like you okay, i never will -.-, it's a disgrace knowing people like you.

Private your blog ? Like hello, you think i bother to go spam you or what nt, don't even dare to open it up and face people ? Afraid people wouldn't agree with your thinkings and everything? Typical unreasonable kid -.- have some maturity please.

Anyway, anyone got any job intro give me ? I seriously need job okay, I need to get myself a handphone, okay handphone, life's such a chore without handphone, it's killing me -.-, i don't know how i managed to survive through this few months/weeks w/o the use of handphone, call me a genius okay.

Me wanna go sleep alr, damn tired, slept at 4 in the morning today, wake up at 1, like hello, can you ? :D, bye.

Help ):!!!

2009-06-16T06:21:00.001-07:00
HELLO ANYBODY CAN TELL ME WHERE CAN I FIND 3 QUATER JEAN :@, AND BIKER/JEAN JACKET, MUST TELL ME KKKK. ADD MY MSN TO TELL ME OR TAG ME, jansenslapyou@hotmail.com many thanks.

Oil boiling.

2009-06-15T21:44:00.000-07:00
Looks who's barking here uh, knnbpcbcbbobeibobuhong gan la _l_.

you want use vulgar on me isit ? You think i nv use any vulgar on you you daisai ah _l_ pcb, I bark on phone then ? As if i bark for nothing ( obviously not like you, day bark night bark, make love also bark, right ? )

You also say you brainless right ? so obviously i will do things which doesn't need to sacrifice so much of braincells which means easy to understand and childish things to make you understand, right ? ( which means you're still having pea size brain -.- )

Why not sure, you can accuse us of anything, why can't we accuse of whatever ? I sure leh, i very very very sure, cheebyekia _l_. ^-^

Look who's the bitch la, bitch ? Loooool, fine im a bitch, ^-^ Bitch is a dog, dog barks, bark grows on trees, trees is nature, nature is beautiful, oh wow, im beautiful, thanks yeow, didn't know you're so brainless that you don't even know this logic, teehee, :P.

I ain't perfect but atleast im mature enough to fk some sense into your tiny weeny brain k, don't think you big fk _l_. why ? I got write name ah, you want admit admit la! Okay la, i admit im referring about you ^^^^^^.

Meeting is the beginning of parting.

2009-06-15T10:57:00.000-07:00

Hi luv, I'm JanseeLee Puborh De 草枝摆 (Chaocheebye) . I've been inspired by some handsome hunks, that's why I'm blogging right nw. Hehs ^-^. Simin lim 破枝摆 ( PuaCheeBye) de nehsagsag has finished blogging. Do check out her blog yohs! ^-^.

I'm not gonna act as though im some form of big shot but please, kids out there with no brain ( or brains of the pea size ) I just wanna tell you stop putting yourself as the centre of everything, -stick out tongue-.

I don't like you, yes you, change your attitude before coming talking to us.
You think we're the only one act fault ? Please you go think la, which part of us didn't treat you well, Simin treats you better than anyone else, yet you do all these to her ? Joke ? Seemed funny, whatever okay, you learn some manners and stop barking around, i don't care you're he or she, you just fking learn some manner because, we aren't meant for you to attitude with and stop thinking you're right with everything cos you aren't perfect like all of us here. ^-^ .

想一想,想阿!

How many times have we tolerated your attitude? You were moody just nw, We gave in right? We didn't continue to make fun of you did we? We tolerated yours, didn't we? Then what nw? You scolded Simin like that? Oh pls. Seriously, don't bark le lah. Nobody would care also.

想一想,想阿!

We've been the ones who went through thick and thin with you for this period of time didn't we? You're gonna shake us off like that? Although you hardly tell me about your problems, But you told Simin , right? You're forsakening this friendship for somebody unworthy like her? Why can't you stop taking us for granted, and always thinking that you're right , and us being wrong. Brainless.

想一想,想阿!

You're always finding fault @ us, When we never do anything at all. You always scold us whenever you're down on the mood as if we're some anger venting machine which made me, or us, pissed like shit. Hello? Is this what we're here for? You're anger venting machine? But still, we kept it to ourselves , didn't we? You're downright selfish. Get a life, bitch.

End of my cute and secksi post already. 路见不平,拔刀相助. 我替天行道, 我是包青天. -tattoo a crest on my forehead-

Andandand also, you pissed us off too okay? Watch out lah, -拍拍屁股就走- . I'm as irritating as Simin, Isn't it? I'm her 师傅 okay !

Me luv cass and slut much too, -purposely leaving somebody's name out-

Will you ever notice..?

2009-06-14T07:36:00.000-07:00
Me think me and Simin have 'Drag me to hell' phobia, me woke up 10 in the morning because of nightmares, don't felt like elaborating it, i woke up with sweat all over my body, omg ):!!!!!! Then i dont dare to turn back because im afraid something will appear behide my back HAHA. Dont dare to bathe because i scare something will appear behide my back again, seriously 'Drag me to hell' is a nightmare for me ):!!!!
And when i was chatting with Simin just now she tell me this :
Simin : I played comp till 4 in the morning yesterday, my ahmah suddenly tap my should and i screamed and don't dare to turn back.
Me : LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
Simin : And my ahmah make milk for me ^^.
Lol -_-, see the effect of 'Drag me to hell' ? Holyshit.

When love turned upside down.

2009-06-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

: We could have done better.

Hi love, im back yesterday 13th June, went out with Simin & Daze after a longlonglonglong time yeow, i swear they were fking slow and late and im like standing over at the 5th floor of Cineleisure like a statue for what seem to be like ages, finally came, went to bought the tickets first, 5.10 show, very fk up only got front seats, )<, we went walking over to Far east to walk around since we 1 hours of waiting time, nothing much there actually ( Im being sarcastic when im too broke to shop la, actually ^-^ ), cabbed back to Cineleisure at 4.30, waits for our hall to be open, so chitchatted abit outside.
Like hello, we're the noisest there, the hall open went in to find our seat, and me and borbuey was like hello this isn't scary in the first place, LOL.
So when the advertisment of coming soon movies was showed, we're like alr having the oh-em-gee-can-i-chicken-out feeling, but we still manage to calm ourselves down and finish the movie, the movie was fking scary i swear, it almost made me thrown up -.-, the most unexpected part was the scariest part, i kept on grabbing on to Simin's hand and pinch when it's neccesary like hello can i fking chicken out, the movie was fking horrid i tell you, after that we walked over back to PlazaSing, went bunk slacked, saw Eileen, went over Cathy to slacked, sat there for what seem to be like ages and camwhored, after that Simin&Daze send me over to mrt station and they bused home, and me, trained home alone.
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I realised i've forgotten to mention what movie i watched, The movie's 'Drag me to hell', what's got into me, even forgotten to mention the show title, jokez -.-, im not me.

Drifted.

2009-06-12T09:47:00.000-07:00

Me went out with Cassandra and Ewyna today! ^-^ we went on and on bitching about some bitch who is so shameless and always like to take other people's leftover as food, pathetic dog, stop backstabbing people, la, -.-'
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Anyway, around 6, trained down t Amk t meet up with Cass & Ewyna, went walking around inside Amk hub until we saw Felicia.Chin filming show there ^-^ she's so pretty yeow. Went to get my nose stud as my nose stud drop out when im sleeping, forgotten how many fking time that fking stud dropped out and go mia as if it's got some fking tiny leg, oh whatever. Aftermath, trained down to Dpg, went bunk to walkwalk, saw Afiq and Yasha, Liza and her boyfr ^-^ bide goodbye and off to Plaza Singapura, ate our dinner at Mos burger, so hard to get a seat k, finally got ourselves some seat, me went bitching about some fat bitch, heh, me rarely bitch about people okay, so don't blame me, ^-^ and me dont want retribution and grow fat like her okie, okie, okie, omg super act cuteszxc O:!
Then we saw Cao guo hui you know, he very handsome leh! Me shouted shuaige LOL, like wtfuxk me so cute right, HEHE. ( Me being sarcastic anyway ^-^ ), then we walked to Cineleisure, so fun there, hehehe, saw quite a few people, but whatever yeow, then walked over to fareast, the shops are alr preparing to close when we reached there, so saddening, me rarely go Farest leh, like that treat me.
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Anyway, i hate Rino la, very yucks leh him, omgomgomgomg, LOL, firstly he claim that he hate Xiaxue, then still post what Xiaxue will appear at FlashMob oh please la, Z.
And 2ndly if yukie wants to gain fame through you right, i rather she go flame Xiaxue la, you think you very famous, MEH, until people want to gain fame through you, atleast people dont go around begging/forcing whatever shit people to advertise your blog right, big shot ah -.-' YUCKS.

Trust.

2009-06-11T03:54:00.001-07:00
To Cassandra.L
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I don't blame you for anything, nothing at all, infact im glad you're willing to care, lol, blame everything on me okay, im the one who started giving all these shit problems, making everyone worry for me, neither do i like myself like this, i wasn't like this before this happenes, i never did regret making this decision, atleast i've tried my best, even if this ends, i've done my best, i couldn't help but thinking if we can't go through thick and thins like this, how are we gng to go through other obstacle, because i believe love has never been smooth, im willing to stake everything including myself into this relationship, that's all i could do, other's depends on him alr ^-^.

To Debbie.Y
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Thanks brother, i've always understands what you're trying to tell me, this kind of relationship is hard to last, everyone knows, we won't be able to tell everyone openly, we have do these secretly, but i think it's the progress i mind, even if it's unhappiness, as long as im doing it with him i think i'll be able to feel happy, no matter what thats my point of view, ^-^, Thanks bro, i don't think after this relationship i'll be able to step into another alr, like how i've stopped loving people since last year, heh.

To Simin.H
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Like what you've said, atleast i give it a shot and try my best, i'll. Because after all these im the one i've to account to, everyone know regret is the worse thing that couldn't be undone, so i won't let it happen to me, might sound childish or something, take it as a period of cool down for me and him...maybe ? There's still a long route for me and him, ^^.

Not the same anymore.

2009-06-10T04:57:00.000-07:00

Sighs, things weren't the same anymore, be it in Clique or relationship.

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I dont wanna become the way i dont wanted to be, i don't want to be someone who want to be reliant on you, i dont want you to be protecting me from everything, i dont like it, cos this will make me like you even more, not as in i dont want to love you too much, but baby, face the fact this will end someday although i believe we could last forever but what if, i mean what if one day, we couldn't make it there, it would be better if i don't put too much hope in it, im afraid, sighs, today's a weird day, disappoiment, thought your return would make my day, but sighs, hah, not anymore.

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Im sorry if i couldn't do my best or i can't reach your expectation.

Happy.

2009-06-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

I bet the pictures are making you guys sick of my face alr ): anyway, hasn't not been posting for the past 2 days i think, cos im too busy playing, HAHAH. Bloody hell, i wanna go out again ):, k let me start with 6th of june ( Yesterday's yesterday's yesterday ) : Met them at bunk, so cool, the 4 of us is finally back as a piece again, how great! After that was bunk inside bunk cos bunk was having some stupid soccer event, so went up t smoke, bought a packet of cigg, kept on smoking like a smoking machine, Jansen lee you're gng t get lung cancer soon, ): after that sat outside bunk to slack, then trained down t Orchard, was super funny there, la, HAHAHA. After that, we super camwhore inside the new open Orchard central, which i fking dont know is what place, we sat down there like nobody's business and started playing kissing game and camwhore, been long since i've feel this happy alr, after that went cathy to play around like retards, O:!
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7th of june ( Yesterday's yesterday ) : Met darling at AmkHub at 3.30 i swear she was fking late which pissed me off cos i have to spend 50 cents calling her to rush her, oh-em-gee, bitch. After that 88 down pasir ris, i swear the weather was fking hot, reached, hugged Dorin, went off to buy drinks with Cass, Dorin and her cousin, went back Bbq pit, started bbq-ing, lol, me and darling was kept on talking about that guy who kept on picking otah to eat, so cute, HAHA. After that went t walk at Beach with darling, heart t heart talk, then went t find boyfr at E-hub, me and darling was like 2 fking idiots trying t figure out which one is his car, LOL!!!!!!
board his car, drive us back t Dorin's chalet, we sat there and started to talk about Virgina, oh-em-gee, LOL, like how would in the hell anyone would want t talk about pussy under the beautiful moonlights, right, right, RIGHT!!!!
After that we left early, sorry we can't blow cakes for you, ): luv you k Dorin, and boyfr drive me and Darling over t tamp mac for dinner, or supper, ah whateverz. Sat there chitchatting for like half an hour or so, then send darling back home, boyfr drive me back t his house, bathe then used his comp while he went t bathe, then off to sleep, shhhh O:!!! LOL!!! Secrets after that ^^.
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8th of june ( Yesterday ) : Morning woke up, boyfr send me off, to meet Cass, walked around with Cass and Vera, then took 74 to Amk, something happened during the bus ride, darling cheerup okay, my shoulder will be there for you, (: after that 169 back home, busy days, O:!
I luv BenjaminYap 123543565478 much.

Disappointed -.-'

2009-06-05T09:34:00.001-07:00
Mummy im disappointed in you -.-, what you said just now isn't true, totally.
you say according t them, my crime is the heaviest, wtfuxk ? Why ? Just b'cos i was carrying my bag and i let them put inside ? -.-' Please la, i let them put inside but i wasn't the one holding the bag when we're caught, think properly please, i alr said i dont want kena caught right, Z -.-.
I didn't know you'll think of me this way, i thought you trusted me, sighs, very very very hurtful -.-'
Seriously im feeling terrible -.-, bye, nobody's here agn when i need someone t talk t, bye.
I luv Benjamin yap, thanks baby.

Memories back.

2009-06-05T00:11:00.000-07:00

Was bored when webcamming, :/.

Reminiscing past memories, i realised i couldn't live without you guys, still, real friends, when i hear the words you guys told me, im really touched, glad, because you guys never did once gave up on me, smile, because i have you guys. I wanna be back with you guys, agn ):!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Morning woke up, bathe and all that, cabbed down t Clementi Headquater for reporting, not really a long queue as i reached there earlier than expected :D. Pass up my reporting form, waited for results, borbuey went off first, i thought something was going t happen t me, cos everyone there left except for me, after that, IO came, uncle went in for statement, they wanted to understand what kind of environment i am living under -.-' holygosh.
Sat outside t wait, saw Edward, HAHAHA, he's so cute la, :\ working there, ^^, he keeps on disturbing me O:! mamade, screwed him, la.
After that, uncle came out, im gng for a counselling program which will last for 6 months, holyfk, atleast not going in nor having probation, thank god already i guess ?
Thanks t all those who prayed for me and gave me blessing and courages. I luv you guys ^^. Im fine now alr.
And the dumb BenjaminYap is in sch now, HAAHAHA, :B.

It takes 2 hands to clap.

2009-06-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

Er, i know it's super unglam so stop laughing okay, im trying to cheer people up by sacrificing my beautiful image, how impressive, pretty cool, huh :B.
I tried using eyeliner just now when i was webcaming with sasa, i got my eye drawn like a piece of shit, like im lacking of sleep for a whole good 1 month, blooooooody sadistic, HAHAHHA. Anyway, im so hungry right now, i want to grab a bite but nothing seems to impress me or my stomach, mother fkers, why is the coffeeshop or mac or kfc or whatever shop so far away, mamade, anyway, there's remedial class today, so as a wonderful obedient student, i went back, yes i went back yes i did!!!! Reached interchange, bused down with Siti and Minghua, went up to class, lesson started, i was totally a blind mice b'cos i've forgotten to bring my spect along after leaving on table yesterday night, after a good 2 hours of torturing of maths lesson, i finally went berserk and decided to go home instead, bused home, went to check out for nose stud, disappointed as shops' still closed, forget it, went back home, cam with the fker Benjamin Yap and he left for school, he's currently studying now :D, after that cam with Sasa, she made me act as if i just came outta of woodbridge, :O, horrible experiences.
Anyway, i've forgotten what happened during Jasmine's chalet so dont bother asking me, lazy to rewind and type out what really happened, bye.

A fresh start perhaps.

2009-05-27T03:01:00.000-07:00
Hi everyone, muack, i've finally done my links, looked so nice right, but i lost alot links i've last time ): taoyan, la. People, must remind me t link you if i nv link you yet k, must okay, if never, hmm, i shall grant you death sentence.
Let me see, hmm, 2 days in total since i've not been posting, not really impressive, let me elaborate to you guys what im up to for the past 2 days. ^^, dont fall asleep cos i'll be doing the same old things okay.

26 May 2009, Yesterday's :
Morning, strolled over to Mrt station to meet up with Tequila and Xueting, crapped like some retard on the bus, was feeling alil bit of afraid as i've skipped school for 2 whole days, nice achivement, right. Morning, pass my police report paper to Miss lee, tooked a peek at her expression, pretty sure that i'll be safe, luckily, tigress's in a good mood, sat down and started on my yet-to-finish-antique-book, pretty interesting this time round when reading this bloody sadistic book....HAHAHA.
After self-reading period, went up for Ccm, holygee, i was amazed by how bored Malayu could gets, perhaps, im not a material for learning Malayu, lesson was worse than World-war2, how i wish i could just ran out of school, forget it, since it's something impossible, buried my face down in books and starts to snore, after a nice 10 or 5 minutes of sleep, Yongjian woked me up from sleep, once again, throw tempered at him, he gave me one stick of Mentos, oh holy, he's always up to some surprises, thanks.
Lesson finally ended, went for lunch, it's been ages since i've had a proper meal in school, bought a set of meal, sat down with Pim, Teq and Baoyuan to have meal, was damn funny lol, la!
Went back to hall for Cip, wtfuxk, this time round Cip really pissed me off if it wasn't for my kind nature ( joke ), the task this time was folding paper crane, -.-, expectation of 30 paper cranes from per person, why ? Raising fund of course, for Kdf, oh, forget it, treat it as im doing this to ransom my sinful sins heh, la.
After sitting down 2 whole hours, school finally ended, home.

Today's :
Morning, cabbed down as i woke up late, -.- please, la, the weather so good, spoiled my mood, i've started with a bad morning, holy mama.
Reached school, was almost late, read my antiqued-book once again for the sake of reading, oh-em-gee, give me a break, the whole of school got scoldings early in the morning because we are unable to sing a proper sch/national anthem (?)
Forget it muack, went up to Ccm again, slept again, t'cher was mad at me for sleeping late yesterday night, oh well, whatever.
After class, went t recess, don't bother to eat, rather spend my time sleeping, gather in hall for recess assembly again, saw Yeelin reading some comics, took one and read on, holy god la, hentai can, damn hentai, LA.
I was so shy and i blushed on the spot, -.-, dont laugh, DONT LAUGH!!! I hardly reads this kind of book, so please understand, amitofor.
Went for beatbox lesson, slept again, was disturbed serveral times by Bryan, i got mad and hit Bryan like mad. :@, watch out okay.
After class, fought with some Malay dogs with Bryan, oh well, ^.^ you don't have to call us babi, why nt, try us, heh (:

All for these 2 days, thanks, muack.
Thanks Jane for helping me to do link k, <3.
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Edited :
Saw this when i was bloghopping :
DDR.
We, the citizen of Ddr.
Pledge to dance according to the arrows,
regardless of left, right, up or down,
to build a community where we thrash Parapara,
based on stepping correctly and not missing.
So as to achieve an S score and make people thinks that we rock.

PARA PARA.
We, the citizen of Parapara.
Pledged to do as many styles as Ddr can,
regardless of butt shaking, shirt removing or shuffling.
Based on dancing so awesomely that even random people worships us,
so as to archive random stares from passerby and laughters from friends.

Oh-em-gee, i was laughing mad when i saw this, 3 cheers for people who wrote this!

Jansen, looked what you've done.

2009-05-25T06:18:00.000-07:00
I made a fool out of everyone, detest myself.
Im sorry, sorry and sorry was all i could say to express my feeling right now, probably more than a useless bum, friends come and go, but who's the one letting them slip and fly off like balloons, i bet, im the one.
For e.g, Hazel :
Dearest sister,
Im sorry, i've been childish, i didn't know my actions could hurt you so deeply, i didn't know my imatureness could make such a big impact in our friendship, im really sorry, after our quarrels, i've been thinking and thinking, was it really my fault, was it really im the one being so stubborn, was it really me, who've make a scar on our friendship.
If, maybe, it's me, beats me, but whatever it is, i've something to tell you, i can't afford to lose you, i truely can't, when im down, you're there lending your should to my teary face, years after years, mistakes after mistakes, you've never given up on me, b'cos i know you've never lose hope in me, but now, i've been doing things hurting you deeply again and again, i know whatever i say now may be rubbish to you.
But Hazel, listen up, i won't forget you, i'll need you, continue to guide me, will you ?

Jiajia
Dearest nuer,
You're post meant alot to me, maybe i really shouldn't give up on my life that easily, just b'cos of some unexpected blows.
I apologise for neglecting you too, ofcos, i can't afford to lose such a wonderful daughter, you guys are my life now, Daddy luv you okay.

Yiqing
Dearest sister,
Sister! you've seen my ugliest side when im drunk, you've hear my troubles out when there's really nobody to share.
You've been a great sister, a friend whom i can't lost. xoxo.

Grabbing hold of things like how it was to be, fixing missing pieces, i've tired my best alr,
Jansen, torn.

Friends come and go.

2009-05-23T17:50:00.000-07:00

Im very disappointed, not referring to anyone, just all of us, all of us who have human nature, all of us who'll be afraid, but at the same time, we're afraid of lone, we need friends, all of us are cowards.
I apologised to everyone, for being such a irritating kids, doing things which jolly well will you make you guys worry sick for me, but still, i dont care what will happened t my safety.
I know my doings are super inresponsible, maybe a moment of foolishness, maybe nt.
but all that i could know is, i owe you guys really alot alot alot of favours, you guys mean more than everything to me, so please, everyone, dont let my childish doings ruin everyone's friendship, i can't afford, neither i want to afford, days after my report back t headquater is seriously a happy memories, i want to quote it as happy, not disappointment, can i ?

Dedications,
Cassandra :
Darling, it's been 2 or 3 years since i've known you, what a long journey we have, aren't we? This path is horrible, you know i know, but still we're here, standing here telling people that we made it through, came to know you still can't put him down, why, you know this will make you suffer like nobody's business and he'll be there happily playing another mind-games on another victim, who's going to walk to same path as you.
Darling, i know what you're thinking alright, i seriously know, dont fall deeper okay, i'll pull you up if you're too tired to continue walking, b'cos no matter what, this is a double path, we'll walk it through all over again. ^^, we'll succeed alright.

Jane :
Baby, thank you for being the one supporting me when im down, when nobody really do care for my feelings, when nobody really understand how i feels.
Im sorry i once brk my promise in the past, but that's the past alr, we've pick up ourself, continue what we used to be.
Regarding yesterday's matter, im really sorry, seriously, i dont know what more could i say except for sorry.
Dont let us fall apart, we'll be together, okay :D.

Jingci :
Bimbo, you're a really nice girl, seriously, you've waste your life for 9 months, this time round, find a better guy, dont fall too deep, if nt you'll be hurted all over agn.
And bimbo, you tell me something is happening back on you, im worried sick, you please please, take care of yourself, you're a big girl alr, i've known you longest here, so please alright, dont cry anymore, nt worth it.
You're always my role model of strong bimbo okay, so pull yourself back and start smiling like how you used to be.
B'cos i need you guide me okay, whenever i fought with my mum, you'll be there for me, being the peace maker, you've done a great job.
Million thanks.

Simin :
Baobei, im sorry i've made you guys angry yesterday, i felt guilty over it.
Hope you can forget everything alright, and baobei! You're the sweetest :D, you're worried for my safety 24/7, making your face full of wrinkles, lollllll :P.
You, get over guys alr okay, dont make them sad over your life, and as for the bitch we saw yesterday at Suntec, dont fret over her, she's just one roti prata face monster :@, i hate her, miss domokun. ^^.

Debbie :
Brother! You're always there for me when im unable to control my emotions rightttttt, im always there for you when you gets upset too right!!
I know sucha nice brother, muack.
You do take care of your heart, dont get hooked by another useless fking irritating guy alr k!
Luv you a million billion!

Weiai :
Bro, though i dont know you for long, but still, we're able to chat and talk like long lost friends! That's what make me so happy that i've got you beside me too.
I saw you yesterday, so cute k! ^^
Muack okay, luvluv.

Ting :
Ting ah ting, where've you been! i need someone t rant about, but i can't find any better listening ear other than you, i miss you k, always cheer me up, always tell me i've nt done anything wrong, always willing t listen t my rantings. Thanks, come back asap.

Cindy :
Sister! you rock okay! :D haha.
Must study hard ah, ^^, sorry for nt able to attend your birthday chalet. Im still so guilty until now, lollllll.
You dont cry over guys alr ah, if nt i piak you :D!
Muack x100000000.

Pictures will uploaded later. xoxo.

A million gratitude.

2009-05-21T21:17:00.000-07:00

(this picture bimbo want gimme lollipop but in the end draw one la, kp cheat my feelings. _l_.)
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Hi, my case went well today, if i guai for another 2 more weeks, i case close liao la. HAHA.

Muacks.

So i must guaiguai, even my msn pm is 'I hate typical ahlian/ahbeng's.' SEE LA, i proof by action right, not like the stupid bimbo, only know how t post stupid contends LOL.

HAHA.

Anyway, i nv pon sch for 2 days can i only pon one day, today got valid reason la, KP.

I GO REPORT LA. LOL.

DONT SIAOSIAO OKAY, GO POLICE STATION LEH, YOU GO BEFORE NT, DONT HAVE RIGHT, THERE ALOT HUNK, JEALOUS OR NOT, JEALOUS RIGHT MUACKS. HAHAHAHAH.

BIMBO IS THE NOOBEST BIMBOTIC BIMBO I'VE EVER SEEN, ^^. BYEBYE.

2009-05-21T21:07:00.000-07:00
Hi, jansen luv me very muchxzc.
:O Don't worry :/ His court case went well today.
If he goodboy fr another 2 more weeks then case close liao. :O

So these 2 weeks, don't anyhow hor you. You stay at yr home.
Face the computer screen and sleep. Then no more eyebags.
Then become chiochio jansen liao. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

& Ps. His pm is "I hate typical ahlian/ahbeng's".
He very very want be a very very good boy nowadays. LOL. :O
K, shit. Byebye. And you, must attend school. Stop skipping. Skip 2 days liao. :@

I want to live a life like this.

2009-05-21T05:39:00.000-07:00

(I edited the photo with photoshop so dont probe with my out-of-shape face.)

A proper post now.

Morning, went t Mummy's place for breakfast since im gng t get my lap back from her, reached, ordered 4 pieces of bread, the eggs are disgusting, so i gave other people, im such a good child to share my food with others -winkwink ^^.
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Reached home, damn bored.la, play audi msn audi msn audi msn, when is my life gng to get more meaningful, but still i rather living like this than get into more and more troubles, making people arnd me, who actually did really cared for me cry/worry. This kind of life is what i really yearns for.
So thank god, for giving me this peaceful life for 16 years, cos idk if i'll be still able to live like this after tmrw, ^^, i hope they're willing t give me another chance, another chance so i can change and show them.
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Early afternoon, bimbo force me to meet her ( insert :C face )
met her and Siewboon at mrt, 3.
I screamed bimbo and everyone looked at me like im some form of retards, then hug my beloved bimbo, HAHA.
She keep say she miss me leh!! LOL!!!!!!!! HAHHA.
I die also dont want say i miss her although i miss her alot ^^.
after that went down t carpark t talk.
Really did talk alot this afternoon, feels good to pour out everything.
hope bimbo's fine too, ^^, be happy too k bimbo, dont cry alr, bimbo ltd pte ^^.
after that went walking around with bimbo cos i wanna get my Comic, you know Naruto Episode 46 Kakashi died, i want cry la, he my hubby k, how can he die loh, ceebehszxc, not fair, i rather
bimbo die la. LOL ( HAHA )
After that bimbo send me t train then train home :@.
Audi awhile, thanks for the mega ah Justin ^^.
you sucks as always, stop calling me 50 cent blowjob la, people now not blowjob k.
rotten dick.
luv, bye ^^, pray best for tmrw morning, must pray for me too k.

Heroes come back.

2009-05-20T21:06:00.000-07:00
Hi, i got my lap back, so happy, i know you all happy for me also ^^.
byebye, i want go enjoy myself, anyway, thanks for everyone's concern k, im fine now, waiting for tmrw's court, muacks.

Mia.

2009-05-18T01:24:00.000-07:00
Hi luv, i've not been able t online for the past 1 week.
my phone and laptop got confiscated, just like what passerby had said, i attached with police case.
thus, i won't be online and able t sms/call you guys till (atleast ) 22nd of May, sorry for the troubles and worries i caused.
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Much luv.

Amend my mistakes.

2009-05-03T05:02:00.000-07:00
Now i've seen through everyone's true colours, who

will be there when you're in trouble ? Nobody, finally i've

understood the meaning of that sentence now. I got myself into

deep big troubles, who'd i called ?

Obviously it would be friends, thinking they would come to my

rescue, wishful thinking, tons and tons of excuses made by you

guys, you guys disgusted me, stop telling me that when

something happened, you'll be there, i don't believe, cos you

never did been there for me when big troubles is here.

Obviously, you guys are just putting on shows infront of

everyone, infact, yourself. I've totally erase the word friends in

my dictionary, (: forget your presence in my heart b'cos, you'll

never be in my heart. Lead your own life, i'll lead mine, since

you wont do any good to mine. Thanks for the show.

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You, I'll never forgive you in my whole life, you say i cling onto

you, ruining your life ? Is that what a mother should do ? Yes,

i've done something utterly wrong today, but what's the

matter ? everything's solved now isn't it, why are you still

making a din barking about this, hey look, stop pushing

everything, or every blame onto me cos i ain't the one who

should be resposible for all my doings.

Put you in my shoes, you scold me whenever i've a phone call,

claim to say that im flirting with guys, but excuse me, do you

think im that attractive to attract every guys, i thought we were

supposed to be sharing troubles cos you're the only kin i have

now, but what are we now, pushing blames to one another, and

stop acting like you've said nothing and you've nothing much in

other's presence cos you'll only make me puke, the more i see

your actings the more i felt like packing my things to leave, you

claim to say i've clinging on you for my whole of my 16 years of

life on Earth, yes, im a piece of shit, and now you twist the story

to say that im part of a resposbility to you ?

You dont deserve anything, put you inside my shoes, what

would you feel after getting scolded by so many people and

now, even you, my only kin wouldn't be the one comforting me,

but blaming me for everything, how lucky could i get, i dont

believe.

and now, i hope you understand what i want to tell you if you

pass by my blog or has been reading my blog with my notice.

Let me decide my own custody, if you dont want to raise me up

anymore, why would anybody, let me be, i can live in street,

under the bridge, beside the beach, wherever, but not your

house, cos your house would be the last place i would want to

be on Earth, shut the fuck up.

I forget to upload photos LOL.

2009-05-02T20:57:00.000-07:00

I forget to upload photos, paiseh LOL.

Guys are all fking noobshits.

2009-05-02T20:46:00.000-07:00
To the first guy, I cried so much for you and you cheat on me again and again, what's with you, retard or something, hey im not a doll or whatever to be played by you, i've my own feelings and emotions look here, im a human, i do feel hurts at times, and stop telling me you love me or you miss me or whatever fking attention seeking shit because i wont give a damn from now on.
fking go fk the wall you fking fk up man.
bye.
To the second guy, check the meaning of 'Wait' before telling me you'll wait for me, cos you seemed to brk the promise you've once made to me, and now, looked at yourself, who are you with and what are you doing, all sorts of bullshit, hey, get your words right please. Wait ? Wow, how long have you been waiting, not even 1 week and you're with the other guy, how funny could that be, take it as a joke if that were meant to be a joke, low life.
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Yesterday, went to 'shopping' with Daze Simin and Cass, lol.
got myself a few new clothes, it's been ages since i've been shopping k, so shutup, dont tell me i've got myself too much clothes alr.
Firstly, met up with Cass at amk hub, then saw Simin and Daze, so went t bunk t check it out.
After that went up to smoking area, and there's this super disgusting gangster ): im so scare of him, he's full of m'sia accent, just like an typical malaysian dog, ( not referring to anybody )
stop trying t wear like you're some form of high class people cos you wear like a typical gangster with that super tight skinny ): how pathetic can you get yourself looking like.
After that, went t plaza sing to shop.
then went another tamp to find Vincent, reached mac, played with his super cool laptop ( but the owner not cool, sad to say )
Then went walking around in circles until we reached Cold storage, went in, get water for Simin and Daze as they were too tired to walk anymore.
After that, slacked around outside, smoked all that, then trained back home, such a wonderful day, i luv it :D.
I luv die you all muacks.

Hi i luv Ho Jingci like mad.

2009-05-02T08:12:00.001-07:00

THANKS HO JINGCI BIMBO FOR DOING MY BLOGSKIN, I LUV HER TILL I DIES, MUACKS T YOU, SLUUUUUUT.

ANYWAY PEOPLE, WILL POST PICTURES TAKEN TODAY TMRW, LOOK OUT :B.

Hey luv.

2009-04-30T06:39:00.000-07:00

Hi, i luv spamming pictures.
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Went sch as usual today, sch's plain boring so i shouldnt mention it again, nothing special
Afterwards, went home, changed, actually wanted to go down t Semb t find clique, but was too tired, so slacked at home t use comp.
Around evening sister called, went t meet her and her boyfr at semb, went t eat dinner. lollll.
after dinner, went t find clique, walking around in circles -.- dumb.
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After that took bus home, was so funny during the bus ride, C:
Happiest day of the week.
I luv Hazel and Gibston. (L)
bye.

I really do understand why you left.

2009-04-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

April, 20, today.
Morning, suddenly dont felt like gng t schl, so called Neyz, trained down t Cck t find her, went into mac to slack, laughed like mad inside k. ^^ so happy.
After that, around 10 plus trained back home t change, was thinking of bringing Neyz inside my house t slack, but stepdad's home, too bad.
Changed, brought laptop out, slack at Yishun mac this time round, lolllll.
thought the internet can be used, but can't -_-.
how sad, so she browse through my laptop, she saw all my privacy LOLLLLLL.
Trained back to Cck with her *being forced, pouts.
after that 190 down t teckwhye, met Alicia, Wanlin, then slack arnd there a while, then bide byebye. :D.

April, 19.
Saw the pizza ? damn small right, hahahah.
6'' only leh, the size of my palm is so much bigger than it i think C:, afternoon, meet Simin at
Yishun interchange, lollllllllll, im like an Aa, i wore my skinny until so tight *twist.
then slack around Yishun area, was bored to death k.
so decided to go amk t haunt Cass down, but half way through, Cass msg us to meet at J8.
Trained down, was so shag can, then bought 2 piece of chicken, thought there's no bone in it, in the end, there's so much of bone inside i almost choked dead k.
Met Cass outside Kfc, she's damn slow can, waited until hair turned white.
Finally the exciting part came -_-, browse through the menu, order an 6 piece set pizza ( that's what we thought )
in the end come out, it's only 6'' in length, lolllllllllllllllllll.
)<, god damn it, anyway, borbuey is a huge cheeze eater, omg k.
she ate almost half bottle of the cheeze *amazed, billed and finally get out of the fking place.
Trained down t Amk, went inside lan, played for arnd 2 hours.
aftermath, went home.